today and last night were interesting
ok I will start with today which was much less interesting. First I had to get up at seven this morning. Did not like that at all because I had to go to the hospital for the annual inservice. Four hours of sitting around listening to the supervisor tell us how to do our jobs which are not hard to do at all. So then somewhere in the middle of all that I get called to go have the nurse lady shove a needle in my arm. Yeah really nice. All of us had our TB tests done in the confrence room. Joy. So I finally got home and my mom was able to come home so my dad and brother went to go get her. I am glad that she is home. So then I have to go to the inductions for NHS, yay, not really, but still I need a dress for it so I decided to make one. Well my first attempt today was lousy, the top was too small. YOu look at the pattern and take all the measurements and then you try it on and it does not fit, that is so lovely. My tits are too large and the fabric was too tight, I mean I could have worn it it just would not have been comfortable. Damn I hate having a large rack. So then I took a second shot but it is just driving me crazy tonight. Last night I went to the Leo's dance. This one was for highschool students. It was a good concept. The DJ sucked, he did not play any decent music all night. I would have even been happy if he played a salsa dance rather than all rap. But I guess there were some people who liked it, The whole thing was like a clothed orgy. so I worked my shift, of taking tickets, then later I was asked to go guard a door to stop people from taking sodas out of the cafeteria. It was all good, not too difficult. But it was boring. So about nine thirty I was relieved of all duities for the night, finally right. The dance ended at ten thirty. Well I go into the gym and try to find some of my friends, well I had a hard time finding them. Well Adrial came over to me and started dancing with me, which I liked. I like dancing with him because he can dance. So he asked me if I had any crushes, a bit weird right, well I told him ofcourse. And asked the question back, he said he had two, one that he told me, and the other he refused to tell me. Well I told him I would tell him if he told me, and eventually he told me that he was really nervous and that he was interested in me. How blind is he? Nobody in their right mind would be interested in me. I am no good for anyone. So he continues to dance with me and then we go and sit agains the bleachers and talk for a few minutes. The worst part is though he had to leave at ten. So I went and walked him out and then went to go help sell drinks. Leif was being really dumb last night as well. He was so down that nomatter what people tried to do for him he just seemed to get worse. I really feel bad for him. I know that I should not, but I feel that some how it was my fault for his being more depressed now, and I want to make him feel better but he does not want to. I can't do anything. I feel like property, under the control of others and not capeable of really helping. Well I don't know what is going on anymore, this life is so fucked up anyways.