two poems
Title: Just Like Any Other Night
Written: May 26, 2007
Song: -
Just Like Any Other Night
The smell of old liqueur and cold smoke
Is making its way into my lungs
When I enter your shabby apartment
You should’ve cleaned weeks ago
I expect to see you
Lying passed out on the couch
In the corner, on the floor
Anywhere you manged to drag your body
When I find you unconsciously
On the white tiles of your small bathroom
I’m not surprised, or confused, or hurt
I just can’t help the sigh that escapes my mouth
I know you can’t hear me
Just like you don’t remember my visits in the morning
When you wake up with a full-grown headache
The water and medicine already on your bedside table
I can’t stop the tears from falling
When I wipe your sweaty, pale face
Not wincing once when the smell of your vomit
Hits me in the face like a fist to the stomach
I know that I deserve to do this
Because I made you feel a thousand times worse
And this is just your way
To make me suffer for my actions
You know that I won’t stay away
Because I could never sleep at night
With the thoughts of your wasted self
Being all alone on my mind
If this is the only way to be close to you
I will do it, no matter how late you come home
Or how much poison you have in your body
You will still look beautiful to me
If this is the only path I can walk
To gain back your forgiveness
I will crawl until my feet and hands are bleeding
Until I will take my last gasping breath
Title: The Letter I Never Got A Chance To Sent (Words I Have To Tell You)
Written: June 4, 2007
Song: 'Symphonie' by Silbermond
The Letter I Never Got A Chance To Sent (Words I Have To Tell You)
Again it’s me who rounds the corner
Again it’s me who has to turn around
I’m sorry I cannot be perfect
I just thought I would not have to be
When I’m with you
But thanks for reminding
I tend to forget just how
Impatiently,
Disabled and
Awful I am
Sue me for wanting to be loved
Wanting to be fully accepted
Not just sometimes
Not just once a week
I want "No Matter What", "No Matter When"
Seeing as you don’t know this feeling
I actually shouldn’t have expected
That you understand
Or try to make things better
In shutting your mouth for once
Weird looks and “Dunno what’s your problem”
Is everything I’ll ever get from you
Because everything you ever did
And everything you ever said
Were dead and empty lies
I’m overreacting?
I’m realistic
I’m melodramatic?
I’m emotional
I’m childish?
I’m human
Why?
Because it’s always me, silly
What did you think?
Written: May 26, 2007
Song: -
Just Like Any Other Night
The smell of old liqueur and cold smoke
Is making its way into my lungs
When I enter your shabby apartment
You should’ve cleaned weeks ago
I expect to see you
Lying passed out on the couch
In the corner, on the floor
Anywhere you manged to drag your body
When I find you unconsciously
On the white tiles of your small bathroom
I’m not surprised, or confused, or hurt
I just can’t help the sigh that escapes my mouth
I know you can’t hear me
Just like you don’t remember my visits in the morning
When you wake up with a full-grown headache
The water and medicine already on your bedside table
I can’t stop the tears from falling
When I wipe your sweaty, pale face
Not wincing once when the smell of your vomit
Hits me in the face like a fist to the stomach
I know that I deserve to do this
Because I made you feel a thousand times worse
And this is just your way
To make me suffer for my actions
You know that I won’t stay away
Because I could never sleep at night
With the thoughts of your wasted self
Being all alone on my mind
If this is the only way to be close to you
I will do it, no matter how late you come home
Or how much poison you have in your body
You will still look beautiful to me
If this is the only path I can walk
To gain back your forgiveness
I will crawl until my feet and hands are bleeding
Until I will take my last gasping breath
Title: The Letter I Never Got A Chance To Sent (Words I Have To Tell You)
Written: June 4, 2007
Song: 'Symphonie' by Silbermond
The Letter I Never Got A Chance To Sent (Words I Have To Tell You)
Again it’s me who rounds the corner
Again it’s me who has to turn around
I’m sorry I cannot be perfect
I just thought I would not have to be
When I’m with you
But thanks for reminding
I tend to forget just how
Impatiently,
Disabled and
Awful I am
Sue me for wanting to be loved
Wanting to be fully accepted
Not just sometimes
Not just once a week
I want "No Matter What", "No Matter When"
Seeing as you don’t know this feeling
I actually shouldn’t have expected
That you understand
Or try to make things better
In shutting your mouth for once
Weird looks and “Dunno what’s your problem”
Is everything I’ll ever get from you
Because everything you ever did
And everything you ever said
Were dead and empty lies
I’m overreacting?
I’m realistic
I’m melodramatic?
I’m emotional
I’m childish?
I’m human
Why?
Because it’s always me, silly
What did you think?