Just a quick post before I procrastinate more before doing what I should be doing.
Yeah.... I should be doing or rather.... making up a ton of quizes and writings and!!! And not to mention a Critical Thinking paper on god knows what for Ethics Class tomorrow evening... but quite honestly I don't want to be doing anything of that. Not in the slightest....
First off I just had a week/weekend of hell, I got my period which I thought I wasn't going to get this month. And so I was PMSing and bitching at everything that moved. Had myself doped up on asprin and then mindlessly zombifed myself by playing Sims3 from morning to night. Which was not such a great Idea because I had a fucking blarring headache by the time I went to bed.
On top of all that shit, I can't think fucking straight! Everything up there is a cloud of... stuff... I dunno... I feel depressed, emotionally.... Like theres something lacking in my life.... Yeah I don't really need love or whatever... but I at least need some kind of attachment.... like a solid friendship that I know I can fall back on... And I know that's Lara. But selfish little ol'me wants more.... I guess the whole lossing out on someone whole deal really just... well all I can describe it as is an old wound thats had salt rubbed into it.
There are moments in my life where I fucking wish I could just pick up the damn cellphone and call whoever and just have a complete conversation of laughter and not have any meaning to it at all. Like.... no need to fight over whose talking, no need for there to be silence and hear the other person sigh.... just an awesome conversation where you forget everything for a tiny bit amount of time.... And Maybe I'm just saying this now because I feel like I've got no one around me at the moment I can just go to..... because I live soooo many fucking miles away from them... but I just have to say it to get it off my mind.... I think...
And lastly... I dont want to do my fucking ethic shit because.... well... all the fucking questions are ethical choices... and you know what? I"M NOT FUCKING ETHICAL! OK! I'm not a moral person. I think that if someone came up to me and held a gun to me head and asked for my fucking money and there was a chance I could steal the gun and turn the situation around, hell I would and I would fucking shoot the mother fucking asshole till he was dead! Like empty the gun and go over board with my self defense. Because thats the only way I would feel safe. And I'm Pro-CHOICE! Fuck you! If I get raped or whatever I'm getting an abortion. That kid aint a life till he can life on his own... but when its in the mother its a parasite! Soooo take that and shove it up your fucking nookie! I'm fucking Pro any fucking genetic or biological advancement. Anything to improve our ways of living and living longer. If this world is going to end we might as well be ready for it and fight it the best we can!
I WANT TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS FUCKING STATE! Fucking tards are everywhere! I miss my change in seasons! I don't even know what season it is right now! I feel like I'm going fuck ass insane!
Ughhh.... this post is completely off track from what I orginally wanted to say.... and now I forget what else I wanted to say....
First off I just had a week/weekend of hell, I got my period which I thought I wasn't going to get this month. And so I was PMSing and bitching at everything that moved. Had myself doped up on asprin and then mindlessly zombifed myself by playing Sims3 from morning to night. Which was not such a great Idea because I had a fucking blarring headache by the time I went to bed.
On top of all that shit, I can't think fucking straight! Everything up there is a cloud of... stuff... I dunno... I feel depressed, emotionally.... Like theres something lacking in my life.... Yeah I don't really need love or whatever... but I at least need some kind of attachment.... like a solid friendship that I know I can fall back on... And I know that's Lara. But selfish little ol'me wants more.... I guess the whole lossing out on someone whole deal really just... well all I can describe it as is an old wound thats had salt rubbed into it.
There are moments in my life where I fucking wish I could just pick up the damn cellphone and call whoever and just have a complete conversation of laughter and not have any meaning to it at all. Like.... no need to fight over whose talking, no need for there to be silence and hear the other person sigh.... just an awesome conversation where you forget everything for a tiny bit amount of time.... And Maybe I'm just saying this now because I feel like I've got no one around me at the moment I can just go to..... because I live soooo many fucking miles away from them... but I just have to say it to get it off my mind.... I think...
And lastly... I dont want to do my fucking ethic shit because.... well... all the fucking questions are ethical choices... and you know what? I"M NOT FUCKING ETHICAL! OK! I'm not a moral person. I think that if someone came up to me and held a gun to me head and asked for my fucking money and there was a chance I could steal the gun and turn the situation around, hell I would and I would fucking shoot the mother fucking asshole till he was dead! Like empty the gun and go over board with my self defense. Because thats the only way I would feel safe. And I'm Pro-CHOICE! Fuck you! If I get raped or whatever I'm getting an abortion. That kid aint a life till he can life on his own... but when its in the mother its a parasite! Soooo take that and shove it up your fucking nookie! I'm fucking Pro any fucking genetic or biological advancement. Anything to improve our ways of living and living longer. If this world is going to end we might as well be ready for it and fight it the best we can!
I WANT TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS FUCKING STATE! Fucking tards are everywhere! I miss my change in seasons! I don't even know what season it is right now! I feel like I'm going fuck ass insane!
Ughhh.... this post is completely off track from what I orginally wanted to say.... and now I forget what else I wanted to say....