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i dont know what to say, but i have a feeling it will sound negative.
i'm trying not to be.
i want to be content by myself, and i know that i am not. i love my friends so fucking much, and thank you for listening to me rant lately. you know who you are.
a night doesnt get past me without looking at the stars. ive wanted to live on orion's belt since i can remember. it reminds me of my childhood. i realized i spent my whole life as a kid wanting to be older, and now that i am i just want to be a kid again... some things i wish i didnt know.
my dad is in paris rite now. i have the feeling im not going to see him very much anymore. i have so many problems with him, but when it comes down to it i love him so much. its something you cant get from your mom... i dont understand it.
ive been smoking too god damn much lately. i cant cut down. everything is surreal lately. my mom finally saw my cuts last night. ive had them about a year. shes oblivious.
if ive been distant to any one of you lately i am sorry. im trying to be alive without the drama. everyone tells me i need a boyfriend. maybe i do. but for right now i would like to see the real me. with nothing and no one attached.
i'm trying not to be.
i want to be content by myself, and i know that i am not. i love my friends so fucking much, and thank you for listening to me rant lately. you know who you are.
a night doesnt get past me without looking at the stars. ive wanted to live on orion's belt since i can remember. it reminds me of my childhood. i realized i spent my whole life as a kid wanting to be older, and now that i am i just want to be a kid again... some things i wish i didnt know.
my dad is in paris rite now. i have the feeling im not going to see him very much anymore. i have so many problems with him, but when it comes down to it i love him so much. its something you cant get from your mom... i dont understand it.
ive been smoking too god damn much lately. i cant cut down. everything is surreal lately. my mom finally saw my cuts last night. ive had them about a year. shes oblivious.
if ive been distant to any one of you lately i am sorry. im trying to be alive without the drama. everyone tells me i need a boyfriend. maybe i do. but for right now i would like to see the real me. with nothing and no one attached.