Maybe
Maybe its time to write again. All is hopeless and lost again. Theres me standing in the cold again with tears that leave foot prints down my face. Havent felt this sad or lost in awhile. ive lost almost everything yet im still me. its odd ive lost my best friend, my other "best friend" and the love of my life for about 7 years now. its been a crazy way to end this year. though ive gained some old faces again in my life i miss the old ones...the best friend ive has from 8th grade the other "best friend" to hold and kiss and well the love of my life...lost in a world that i could not bare to live in. its scary things are getting worse with my mother the screams are becoming loud and the yelling is becoming more hateful. its a world i never thought i would grow up in. maybe ive brought it apon myself but im still holding strong thru tears laughs cries screams i am me. i feel i could do things on my own better than before but feel alone and feel something missing. i miss love i miss a voice i miss a hand to hold i miss lips to touch i miss happiness. I never knew you could be stronger than ever and not be happy. maybe im happy maybe im scared i dont know what to think. i need a friend a friend that will listen. i want to cry so bad right now but for what?? for everything or for nothing...come wipe my tears! Fear is a strange thing. i feared for losing my best friend but suddenly now when shes gone i dont know if i want her around anymore shes changed. maybe its me thats changed. confused but not feeling like it. lonely but not sad. scared but not fearing. whats going on?? am i alone on this one??