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things that suck
*getting fired
*being dropped from my acting class which i was so stoked for and which I had no control over at all
*being poor
*there are no jobs
*i cant file for unemployment bc my job fucked me over
*my dad for not calling me when he knows im freaking out
*my mom for not calling me ever and generally being a shitty person and esp. a shitty mother
*the sundown for fireing for NO REASON and doing it after i came back from a trip (instead of before)
*winter
*the heat in my apartment
*my skin
*i have a fucking lump in my lyphnodes and it hurts and its like under my bikini line
*im scared and confused about my next step and im having a hard time feeling capable after being fired and not being told the reason. am i incapable of work?
*my clothes.
things that are awesome
*tanith
*day dreaming about my cottage and bulldog at the end of the summer
*the kids are alive and well
*being pretty
*seamus
*emily, wherever she is
*catherine and jenn both seem happier and like they are "on their way"
*having jason and aaron back in my life-- they make me feel strong and valuble
*my creative writing teacher and class, if i dont get droppped, which I'm pretty sure i will
*not being fat anymore
*being smart
*getting fired
*being dropped from my acting class which i was so stoked for and which I had no control over at all
*being poor
*there are no jobs
*i cant file for unemployment bc my job fucked me over
*my dad for not calling me when he knows im freaking out
*my mom for not calling me ever and generally being a shitty person and esp. a shitty mother
*the sundown for fireing for NO REASON and doing it after i came back from a trip (instead of before)
*winter
*the heat in my apartment
*my skin
*i have a fucking lump in my lyphnodes and it hurts and its like under my bikini line
*im scared and confused about my next step and im having a hard time feeling capable after being fired and not being told the reason. am i incapable of work?
*my clothes.
things that are awesome
*tanith
*day dreaming about my cottage and bulldog at the end of the summer
*the kids are alive and well
*being pretty
*seamus
*emily, wherever she is
*catherine and jenn both seem happier and like they are "on their way"
*having jason and aaron back in my life-- they make me feel strong and valuble
*my creative writing teacher and class, if i dont get droppped, which I'm pretty sure i will
*not being fat anymore
*being smart