the computer is fixxed.... yeayuh
i feel so empty
i feel so alone
i feel so unsure
i feel so down
nothings wrong
but yeah
i cant find it in me to smile and actually mean it
or to feel happy for more than a second
everythings just kinda bleh
its weird
like... all the decisions ive made were for the better
because ive just gotten fed up
but now its turning into not trying
and just wanting to be home alone sleeping all day
and wanting to isolate myself
and i miss having a best friend... unno? like... yeah sheryl and yazz are my bestest... but its like... i dont really get to see either of them that much... and its like my life wont allow time for friends and madcrazyness and i dunno i just miss that
and then i keep getting even more behind in school
and its frustrating that i cant understand anyhting anymore
and that my effort to get all a's is basically shot
i was so close to it too... but yeah that bothers me cuz i was like so close to straight a's and then yeah
and it sucks right now because i dont know what to think about anyone or if i should be happy or whats going on with my life and with boys and with just everything and i dont know anymore
and whats the point of living
and going to school
and laughing
and trying to find happiness
i miss when things were simple
zero
one
two
three
four
my alimagater...
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i feel so alone
i feel so unsure
i feel so down
nothings wrong
but yeah
i cant find it in me to smile and actually mean it
or to feel happy for more than a second
everythings just kinda bleh
its weird
like... all the decisions ive made were for the better
because ive just gotten fed up
but now its turning into not trying
and just wanting to be home alone sleeping all day
and wanting to isolate myself
and i miss having a best friend... unno? like... yeah sheryl and yazz are my bestest... but its like... i dont really get to see either of them that much... and its like my life wont allow time for friends and madcrazyness and i dunno i just miss that
and then i keep getting even more behind in school
and its frustrating that i cant understand anyhting anymore
and that my effort to get all a's is basically shot
i was so close to it too... but yeah that bothers me cuz i was like so close to straight a's and then yeah
and it sucks right now because i dont know what to think about anyone or if i should be happy or whats going on with my life and with boys and with just everything and i dont know anymore
and whats the point of living
and going to school
and laughing
and trying to find happiness
i miss when things were simple
zero
one
two
three
four
my alimagater...
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