here we go..
So, I'm always up late reading this fucking things when I'm bored out of my mind.
And, I figured that because I read everyone else's, I might as well write in mine.
I deleted all the old entries, because I wanted to :)
Kinda started over a little, so I'm looking at this as a fresh start. I'm only letting cool people read it though, cuz stupid people suck. hehe.
So, I'm living back home. After being on my own for like 5 months, this is hell. It's not that bad. It feels good being back with my family, and most of all my pidge <3. I fucking missed that girl so much. It's so true, you never realize what you have until it's gone.
I found out that apparently, it's well known that I "get around". I can see how Patchogue kids might think that, because I've talked to a lot of kids, but it was always the whole 2 week deal. You talk to someone new, start to get to know them, and it either goes somewhere, or doesn't. Most of them, didn't. But I didn't go around and fuck them. I doubt I've even kissed most of them. It wasn't even that many kids, lol. What the fuck am I saying, I'm even making it sound like a lot. But whatever. People can believe whatever the fuck they want. I know I'm not a whore, and my friends (the only people who's opinions actually mean anything to me)..know that I'm not a whore. So all you mutha fuckers who wanna think I am? HAVE A BLAST!
you'll get so far in life believing everything you hear, it's crazy.
I've only had sex with four people, and I'm 18 years old. My sex life is my business, and nobody else's. Although, living in the city, I forgot that on Long Island, everyone thinks they know everything about everyone. Wo0ps? Little long island fact I seemed to have chosen to forget.
Whatever. I have the most amazing friends, and I can't wait till we're all happy.
I met a boy...
For the first time, I said I was gonna take things slow, and I actually did. Really slow.
We've been hanging out for like 3 weeks now, and he's nothing short of amazing. He does everything I need and I've been looking for, and I don't have to ask for it this time. It's just there. I love seeing him, and I love the messages he sends me for when I wake up in the morning. And, I love how I'm retarded around him, and he loves my friends. I love how scared of vicki he is, I love how happy I am since I met him, I love how he smiles when he sees me, cuz it makes me smile. I love how he's a good kisser, and has nice hands (i'm weird) and most of all, I love how he shaves for me :) I'll be his once I hang out with his friends...wich will hopefully be this week? Alicia actually wants to meet me. When I was going out with Matt, he told me he couldn't even bring me over there for a party one night, because Alicia "hated me soo much". I don't know. whatever. I'm looking foward to meeting her. I have a weird feeling we'll hit it off. I have no doubts on my part, cuz Anthony loves her to death, so she's gotsss to be cool. And when my guy friends get close to girls, I turn into a psycho protective bitch, and fuckin do so much research on them before I approve, lol. I hate when girls hurt my boys, so I totally understand if she feels sketchy bout me at first. if she even does. idk. whatever. But if anyone hurts anyone, he'll be hurting me. I'm not capable of hurting anyone anymore. My heart is shot. Well..was shot. Anthony makes it feel better :)
GOD, i'm SO LAME
I sound like a fuckin school girl. ewwwwwwwwwwww
((stupid lame crushy gooey feelings shit!---dianna <3))
It bugs me that Dianna hasn't found that yet. I want her too, so bad. It's her turn god dammit!
Ali has Dan. I love them <3
I need a FUCKING JOB! NOW.
I want a job helping people. I wanna work in a soup kitchen, or a shelter or something. If I'm gonna be busting my ass full time, and I plan on going to college for social work/psychology, I wish I could find a place now helping people :( I love that feeling.
I'm bored. I'm gonna go read.
peace.
And, I figured that because I read everyone else's, I might as well write in mine.
I deleted all the old entries, because I wanted to :)
Kinda started over a little, so I'm looking at this as a fresh start. I'm only letting cool people read it though, cuz stupid people suck. hehe.
So, I'm living back home. After being on my own for like 5 months, this is hell. It's not that bad. It feels good being back with my family, and most of all my pidge <3. I fucking missed that girl so much. It's so true, you never realize what you have until it's gone.
I found out that apparently, it's well known that I "get around". I can see how Patchogue kids might think that, because I've talked to a lot of kids, but it was always the whole 2 week deal. You talk to someone new, start to get to know them, and it either goes somewhere, or doesn't. Most of them, didn't. But I didn't go around and fuck them. I doubt I've even kissed most of them. It wasn't even that many kids, lol. What the fuck am I saying, I'm even making it sound like a lot. But whatever. People can believe whatever the fuck they want. I know I'm not a whore, and my friends (the only people who's opinions actually mean anything to me)..know that I'm not a whore. So all you mutha fuckers who wanna think I am? HAVE A BLAST!
you'll get so far in life believing everything you hear, it's crazy.
I've only had sex with four people, and I'm 18 years old. My sex life is my business, and nobody else's. Although, living in the city, I forgot that on Long Island, everyone thinks they know everything about everyone. Wo0ps? Little long island fact I seemed to have chosen to forget.
Whatever. I have the most amazing friends, and I can't wait till we're all happy.
I met a boy...
For the first time, I said I was gonna take things slow, and I actually did. Really slow.
We've been hanging out for like 3 weeks now, and he's nothing short of amazing. He does everything I need and I've been looking for, and I don't have to ask for it this time. It's just there. I love seeing him, and I love the messages he sends me for when I wake up in the morning. And, I love how I'm retarded around him, and he loves my friends. I love how scared of vicki he is, I love how happy I am since I met him, I love how he smiles when he sees me, cuz it makes me smile. I love how he's a good kisser, and has nice hands (i'm weird) and most of all, I love how he shaves for me :) I'll be his once I hang out with his friends...wich will hopefully be this week? Alicia actually wants to meet me. When I was going out with Matt, he told me he couldn't even bring me over there for a party one night, because Alicia "hated me soo much". I don't know. whatever. I'm looking foward to meeting her. I have a weird feeling we'll hit it off. I have no doubts on my part, cuz Anthony loves her to death, so she's gotsss to be cool. And when my guy friends get close to girls, I turn into a psycho protective bitch, and fuckin do so much research on them before I approve, lol. I hate when girls hurt my boys, so I totally understand if she feels sketchy bout me at first. if she even does. idk. whatever. But if anyone hurts anyone, he'll be hurting me. I'm not capable of hurting anyone anymore. My heart is shot. Well..was shot. Anthony makes it feel better :)
GOD, i'm SO LAME
I sound like a fuckin school girl. ewwwwwwwwwwww
((stupid lame crushy gooey feelings shit!---dianna <3))
It bugs me that Dianna hasn't found that yet. I want her too, so bad. It's her turn god dammit!
Ali has Dan. I love them <3
I need a FUCKING JOB! NOW.
I want a job helping people. I wanna work in a soup kitchen, or a shelter or something. If I'm gonna be busting my ass full time, and I plan on going to college for social work/psychology, I wish I could find a place now helping people :( I love that feeling.
I'm bored. I'm gonna go read.
peace.