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i feel so sad right now and not okay and i'm in a little ball and i'm in front of my computer and i feel so sad and i haven't moved for a long long time and i swear i'll get huge if i do this too much and i feel horrible and your stupid cell phone cut out, i didn't hang up on you, but i'm not sure if i care which you think anyway since you didn't even care to call back, and when i tried, my caller i.d. siad "PRIVTE NAME PRIVATE NUMBER" because marcos is a fuck face and you're such a dick to say "well he's no dylan, if that's what you expect" because that doesnt make any sense of you to say anyway. hes no dylan, what? and neither are 95% of the people i like, so? marcos isn't a kid, he doesn't seem like he even has anything inside of him at all, and he's only friendly to girls that he thinks he might be able to put his thing into. i was just saying how friends of mine randomly stopping by is invited, however when it's not even a person who opens up to people, and not a perosn i know, or can get to know, and not a peerson who is even coming here to be with friends, but only a person coming here to look for a certain friend to come amuse him, and then stand with his arms fucking fuolded against himself next to my door unmoving for an hour, it's not so fucking invited. whatever. i'm so upset and sad and tired i'm tired i'm upset i don't want to see you i don't care if you care or not.