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i took all of his old stuff and our old stuff & packed it in a box.
put it in the car and drove to the beach.
there wasnt any pits available though.
so i smoked a bowl.
& thought
& thought
& thought
i already feel better.
i had been holding on for way to long.
thinking that if i let go i would forget about him.
but how could i?
he was such a huge part of my life that i never could.i wouldnt be able to.
having all this stuff around for all this time, 3 years
i wasnt allowing myself to be free. to let go of the fear.
but i can finally breathe now. im ok.
i let go of alot of things today.
i had mounds of stuffed animals shoved away in mycloset. i put them all in bags and im going to give them to someone who needs then more and will appreciate them more than i will ever again.
i am an adult. childhood is over. so why hang on to it?
put it in the car and drove to the beach.
there wasnt any pits available though.
so i smoked a bowl.
& thought
& thought
& thought
i already feel better.
i had been holding on for way to long.
thinking that if i let go i would forget about him.
but how could i?
he was such a huge part of my life that i never could.i wouldnt be able to.
having all this stuff around for all this time, 3 years
i wasnt allowing myself to be free. to let go of the fear.
but i can finally breathe now. im ok.
i let go of alot of things today.
i had mounds of stuffed animals shoved away in mycloset. i put them all in bags and im going to give them to someone who needs then more and will appreciate them more than i will ever again.
i am an adult. childhood is over. so why hang on to it?