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i leave tomorrow night. aaaahhhhhh!!!
i was gunna go out tonite, get f*ked up and die but i cant. i woke up last night mid axiety attack. i havent even started to pack. i have gone out everynigh right after work and havent come home any earlier than 12:30 all those nights. so taht means tonite i HAVE to pack and get ready. right after work tomorrow im coming home to grab all my stuff and go to the airport.
once again i feel like im stuck. i'm in the career ive always wanted and i work all day long, but i feel like im missing out on other things in life. i dont know why. i see my friends all the time and we have so much fun, but theres more. i always have to say no to something because i have to work and if i dont work i dont make money nad if i dont make money im a failure as a n adult and cant afford my bills or to do anything anyways. i guess thats kind of like a catch 22, right? i dont even know.
i guess basically i just feel like im missing out on life and im being shoved into the adult world and i am soo not ready.
does anyone want to take care of my turtles this wknd for me??
i was gunna go out tonite, get f*ked up and die but i cant. i woke up last night mid axiety attack. i havent even started to pack. i have gone out everynigh right after work and havent come home any earlier than 12:30 all those nights. so taht means tonite i HAVE to pack and get ready. right after work tomorrow im coming home to grab all my stuff and go to the airport.
once again i feel like im stuck. i'm in the career ive always wanted and i work all day long, but i feel like im missing out on other things in life. i dont know why. i see my friends all the time and we have so much fun, but theres more. i always have to say no to something because i have to work and if i dont work i dont make money nad if i dont make money im a failure as a n adult and cant afford my bills or to do anything anyways. i guess thats kind of like a catch 22, right? i dont even know.
i guess basically i just feel like im missing out on life and im being shoved into the adult world and i am soo not ready.
does anyone want to take care of my turtles this wknd for me??