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[shes_so_jazzy]

why is it so difficult to clear my head? today my drawing teacher brought the class to her house to draw. i am never in the mood to draw on these field trips. i usually find a corner of wherever we are where no one is and write. the last time i did this besides today was when lauren called me asking, "am i really married?" and then that spawned me to write a bunch of angsty poems about drugs and fuck buddies. i found them today. you know what i wrote about today? about how i'm such a great girl(in his eyes, i don't really care, because if that's the way one feels you should fucking treat me that way.) that gets treated like shit because i let people do just that.

then i listened to my teacher talk about her husband and wonder if she has had botex done on her face the whole time she was talking to me. i left early with the stoners because they had a car and i didn't want to be in a happliely married perfect house anymore. we sang songs on the way home. then i took a nap and

still my head was heavy.

i don't know about you but, kimya dawson has been saving my life lately.