You call me so impulsive, but that's what makes us so explosive
It has been a while since I've assembled a list. What better way to start a year and end a month? I think fourteen would be appropriate considering the planning and organizational theme of things lately:
1. The fact that I do not take the time and energy that I used to take for writing ever since that trip to Redington last year scares me. I hope it has more to do with my hectic schedule, but deep down I think I overwhelmed myself.
2. There is a swollen lymph node on the back of my neck that hurts like crazy, even with pain medication. Frustrating!
3. I was worried that being back at Mamma's would feel like it was wounding my pride. I've accomplished so much since I was last there, and I was afraid I would have to slink back in with my tail between my legs to make a few bucks that I, as a success, surely should not need. Instead, I am having a nostalgic blast.
4. I may keep money in too high of a regard. That, or I'm just dying to know what it's like to not constantly be in desperate need of it.
5. Even now, three and a half months out, it still doesn't feel real. I just feel so surrounded by planning and things that need to be done that I might implode if I don't keep the functional tasks in perspective. And even if it doesn't feel real until the day of, I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing... Because I'm still so very excited for the reality to strike.
6. My hair is going to be so boss for this wedding, I'm actually willing to use the word "boss".
7. I can see the milestone dominos clanking into each other one at a time. I am so excited to attend more weddings for people that I care so much about. Love is a gift that is worth celebrating.
8. I think I hold myself back from getting too deep into the details and emotions of anything in writing now- that must be what #1 is all about. I know it happened right after that writing extravaganza, I just wish I knew how to power it back on. It is in my egotistical nature to want to see my experience and feeling bounced back to me in my own words. Without that, I feel disconnected from myself.
9. Being hungry is awesome when you have a lot of options of food to eat (when you don't count calories, which I don't). It's also a curse when you are thundersnowed in with only a minimal array of foods to choose from. I love food.
10. May as well have it on record... I drove through the Thundersnow/Snowpocalypse/Snowmageddon of 2011 and made it home to tell the tale. Perhaps the best part of my quest was getting stuck, getting helped out of being stuck by a guy with a heavy European accent, then stopping to help someone else who was stuck... who also had a heavy European accent. And no- it was not the same guy.
11. Every time I think about my conceptual (not yet existing) wedding band, I get really happy. Both about what it symbolizes and about the actual appearance. Totally cool.
12. I think it's strange that we will be legally married a month before the ceremony. I know that's how you're supposed to do it, but it just seems like it would take away from the ceremony. I'm sure I won't feel that way the day of, though... despite what wishes my mascara may have.
13. I'm a little late on this, both in the list and by the actual date, but I am glad that I was fortunate enough to spend another New Year's Eve with an apartment full of the most wonderful people I have ever met and loved. You guys make the hard times worth fighting through and the good times worth celebrating.
14. Did I mention how crazy in love I am, and how everything seems better when we're together, even if we are just warm in bed and reading? We're such an old couple- and yet, we're so outrageously sexy...
There's something about even numbers that just feels unsettling and unfinished. Shouldn't it be the odd numbers that feel that way? Next list I'll go for twenty one again <3