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I think lifes biggest task is to find balance. Everyone wants to feel/be balanced, its not in our nature to be so but we want to be. Its not that its impossible, its just hard. I think women have a harder time achieving this than men but I know men have their demons too, they're just less expressive than women. I know that there are balanced women in this world. I refere to these types of women as ladies. I always said I wanted to be a lady when I grew up. I think most women need to just shut up and not let everything get to them. I am one of those women so I feel comfortable saying this. I demand way to much respect sometimes. I throw fits of emotion that's unbarable. No wonder i've disliked myself for so long... cause not only do I anger the people I love but I anger myself, and i've continued to act this way without thought.. This year as hard as it may be for me is too find balance, & when I'm mistreated to not loose my cool but to accept that its out of my control and getting upset about it doesn't make matters better, only worse, I'm going to mature and grow into a woman and say so long to the little girl inside. First I need to assure her that she is loved and is brave so that its both easy for us to say good-bye, and she can carry on playing in the garden, a different garden, that garden in which she had called home was in my head.