dying a thousand deaths each day
im starting to wonder if its so warm outside. why do I still feel cold inside.
Passion of Christ made me hate people and how there so quick to assume and right people off. Then I thought about how maybe Ed was right when he told me I was going to die alone. why oh why do I push people away. and not just people. Guys im in relationships with. My theory is because my dad left us when I was fairly young , and my brother in a way left us to. I mean suicide is an escape is it not? I guess im destined to go watch clock work orange with Nicholas and turn my head off for a bit. Im so tired that my eyes are killing me.
I can't wait to go hiking thursday.
the end.