I walk this empty street, on the boulevard of broken dreams
I'm getting to the point where I dont care if my grandpa lives or dies, and I bet anything that he's thinking the same thing. He doesnt want to help anyone anymore. He doesnt even want to help himself. He's fucking insane from drinking... he went crazy on my brother last night, and I guess he broke his computer and broke the phone because my aunt or uncle called and Dustin answered... Dustin packed and is staying with my aunt and cousin now.
I. Hate. My. Grandpa. I wont pray for him or anything. I cant. I hate him too much. I was over there yesterday with Jody and Sherriy getting his signature saying that theyre now my guardians, and even though we were there for just a few minutes, I couldnt stand it.
I dont know what to think. I dont want to think about it.
I'm hopefully going to go over to Zach's today. He leaves for Seattle tomorrow for 6 days to see his mom. I guess I'm going to Ontario, Oregon with everyone, but I dont know when. It should be fun, though :D
Friday I wound up not hanging out with Zach because I went to tri cities Christmas shopping with everyone. Saturday I went to tri cities again, this time with him, and we went to Old Country Buffet and the mall. Then last night we hung out for a few hours around town.
I can see us having a really good relationship :) He likes me a lot and I like him a lot, too... all I want is for us to be happy together. He's given me more hugs and kisses than I've ever got from a guy, and we've only been together a few days.
Last night I was going to bed and Jesse wanted to talk. He asked if I liked him anymore, then he asked why we broke up... he should know why, considering he's the one that dumped me. Whatever, though... I'm happy now, and I dont want anything with Jesse ever again. I told him before I fell asleep that I hope the next girl he dates he'll treat with respect. He cheated on the girl he was dating a week after we broke up with me.
Damnit... I'm ranting so much! I have a lot to talk about, but I dont want to talk about it all. I dont like writing long entries anymore or entries that are all sad and depressing, but I've been doing that a lot lately.
I'm going to go find something to do.
~rag doll
P.S. 5 days until Christmas!
I. Hate. My. Grandpa. I wont pray for him or anything. I cant. I hate him too much. I was over there yesterday with Jody and Sherriy getting his signature saying that theyre now my guardians, and even though we were there for just a few minutes, I couldnt stand it.
I dont know what to think. I dont want to think about it.
I'm hopefully going to go over to Zach's today. He leaves for Seattle tomorrow for 6 days to see his mom. I guess I'm going to Ontario, Oregon with everyone, but I dont know when. It should be fun, though :D
Friday I wound up not hanging out with Zach because I went to tri cities Christmas shopping with everyone. Saturday I went to tri cities again, this time with him, and we went to Old Country Buffet and the mall. Then last night we hung out for a few hours around town.
I can see us having a really good relationship :) He likes me a lot and I like him a lot, too... all I want is for us to be happy together. He's given me more hugs and kisses than I've ever got from a guy, and we've only been together a few days.
Last night I was going to bed and Jesse wanted to talk. He asked if I liked him anymore, then he asked why we broke up... he should know why, considering he's the one that dumped me. Whatever, though... I'm happy now, and I dont want anything with Jesse ever again. I told him before I fell asleep that I hope the next girl he dates he'll treat with respect. He cheated on the girl he was dating a week after we broke up with me.
Damnit... I'm ranting so much! I have a lot to talk about, but I dont want to talk about it all. I dont like writing long entries anymore or entries that are all sad and depressing, but I've been doing that a lot lately.
I'm going to go find something to do.
~rag doll
P.S. 5 days until Christmas!