so many thoughts...

[shes_a_killing1]

ugh!
i have so many thoughts
going threw my head.
i wish i could just bottle up my thoughts
put them on a shelf or something
organize them.
that would be nice.
then they wouldn't disapear
forever. like they do.

maybe play them back
to the ppl they are to.
that would be nice.

some of them are very important.
like how i can't understand
that it still bothers me
going down even just
vanden road at night.
it reminds me of a certain night still,
i guess. as much as i hate it.
it reminds me of the confused feeling
similar to the one i felt probably 7 years ago.
except this time not so confused
i have a little more knowledge.
but the situation still just as confusing.
then i was nine &the one was 15.
now i am 16 &the one to do it should know better.
but i really think he didn't.
i think he didn't me to hurt me
&I want to say "i'm sorry."

thats just one thought.

&i'm going to stop here
because i am not making sense.
silly thoughts
they should stay inside are heads.
or in our bottles.
unless let out to the right person.
i hope that made at least a little sense.lol.

i wish i could say ...Goodnight!
but i doubt i will sleep.