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Head under water
And you tell me
To breathe easy for awhile
The breathing gets harder
Even I know that
Made room for me
It's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well but you make this hard on me
I learnt the hard way
That they all say
Things you wanna hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under
You and Your twisted words
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
i think tomorrow is going to be the hardest day ive had to bear in such a long time. i know that all this means well, but i just dont know. my head is so confused with things and all of a sudden today i started feeling depressed... in the middle of bowling none the less. i cant wait to come back home and get my life on track. i need to see my friends, the ones i havent yet. i guess i should throw myself a welcome back party, if anyone would show up. there is one person in particular that is constantly on my mind. they seem to bring me back to myself whenever they are around. but sometimes i just wonder what they actually see in our relationship. its confusing, and i just get mixed signals. but i guess there is all the time in the world to figure that one out. ugh why do somepeople have to be so immature and irresponsible. i know im not perfect, but still. i dont know how i got myself into this in the first place. at the same time i dont know if i am making the right decision. how do i know that this is best for me? i guess i just have to take things one step at a time. im sure in two weeks things will all be better. i am hoping so. but on the bright side its been a amazing week here. although i didnt do much, i enjoyed most of everyminute that i was able to spend with everyone. although some things fell through. i guess april 19 happened for a reason. it made me realize a ton of things and im glad that somethings havent changed.
And you tell me
To breathe easy for awhile
The breathing gets harder
Even I know that
Made room for me
It's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well but you make this hard on me
I learnt the hard way
That they all say
Things you wanna hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under
You and Your twisted words
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
i think tomorrow is going to be the hardest day ive had to bear in such a long time. i know that all this means well, but i just dont know. my head is so confused with things and all of a sudden today i started feeling depressed... in the middle of bowling none the less. i cant wait to come back home and get my life on track. i need to see my friends, the ones i havent yet. i guess i should throw myself a welcome back party, if anyone would show up. there is one person in particular that is constantly on my mind. they seem to bring me back to myself whenever they are around. but sometimes i just wonder what they actually see in our relationship. its confusing, and i just get mixed signals. but i guess there is all the time in the world to figure that one out. ugh why do somepeople have to be so immature and irresponsible. i know im not perfect, but still. i dont know how i got myself into this in the first place. at the same time i dont know if i am making the right decision. how do i know that this is best for me? i guess i just have to take things one step at a time. im sure in two weeks things will all be better. i am hoping so. but on the bright side its been a amazing week here. although i didnt do much, i enjoyed most of everyminute that i was able to spend with everyone. although some things fell through. i guess april 19 happened for a reason. it made me realize a ton of things and im glad that somethings havent changed.