words
I always have so much to say to you. so much. and like it stacks up you know? and I just end up with a whole ton of problems that I wanna address that get unleashed in a giant shitstorm of frustration. I always get this close to letting everything go, saying every single word I have longed to say. but I can't. what stops me? my fears. my fear that you will have a rebuttal for everything that I've said. my fear that you'll just say that I'm overreacting and brush it off. my fear that by saying those words you'll push me away. and you're already so far away. why can't you just listen, just listen and be there? why's that so hard for you.