thoughts.
I'm sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really wish I could. but I'm just so terrified of what would happen to us if I did.
I seriously hate it yknow, I want you to be there to help me out with it, but how can someone who's the main part of the problem possibly help with it? urgh.
6. 6 people know the truth. and I pray to god that you won't ever get thee slightest inkling of what's really going on in my head. but then again what if you already do? this is just so confusing and I seriously can't deal right now.
I know what happened last Wednesday was bad. Alcohol is never the answer. but it felt good for a while yknow? to be free from all my inhibitions, to just cry and laugh, to be completely erratic.
Monday and today were bad as well, and I hope that you never find out about it. I just needed a hit so badly, so I really thank P and M for letting me have some.
what the fuck is even wrong with me? I'm turning into the person I once despised. I guess I need your help and your support more than ever but at the same time I can't possibly get any. I just can't.
can't deal, can't fucking deal.
I seriously hate it yknow, I want you to be there to help me out with it, but how can someone who's the main part of the problem possibly help with it? urgh.
6. 6 people know the truth. and I pray to god that you won't ever get thee slightest inkling of what's really going on in my head. but then again what if you already do? this is just so confusing and I seriously can't deal right now.
I know what happened last Wednesday was bad. Alcohol is never the answer. but it felt good for a while yknow? to be free from all my inhibitions, to just cry and laugh, to be completely erratic.
Monday and today were bad as well, and I hope that you never find out about it. I just needed a hit so badly, so I really thank P and M for letting me have some.
what the fuck is even wrong with me? I'm turning into the person I once despised. I guess I need your help and your support more than ever but at the same time I can't possibly get any. I just can't.
can't deal, can't fucking deal.