This ones for the girls....
-somewhere between the procrastination
& the homework
& the incessant forwards
& the friendships
& the nasty cafeteria food
& the calls to each other complaining about crushes
-somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
& the "I miss you's"
& the "I love you's"
& the "What are we doing tonight's"
& somewhere between all of the changing & growing..
somewhere between the classes
& the skipping classes
& the studying for tests
& the pretending to study for tests
& the downright not studying for tests...
-i forgot.
..i forgot what high school is all about.
..i forgot what it meant to cry
..i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
& that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
..i forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.
..i forgot that you can't control falling in love
& that you can't make yourself fall in love.
-i learned that I can love.
..i learned that it's okay to mess up
& it's okay to ask for help
& it's okay to feel like crap.
..i learned its okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.
..i learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have.
..i learned that the greatest thing about high school isnt the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups...
..it's the friendships which means taking chances.
..i learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.
..i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing
& that sending cards to your friends makes YOU feel better.
-But, basically, I just learned that my friends
.. both old and new
..are the most important people to me in the world
&without them.. i wouldn't be who i am today