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Alright so im so...i dont know...im so something right now.I dont even know the word to desicribe what im feeling!
I fucking hate myself for getting so into Troy.Hes a piece of shit asshole and I hate him.I hate him I hate him I hate him.You wouldtn even know,
He plays stupid ass games with stupid girls like me that fall for them Every damn time. I hate being a girl and getting so attatched to stupid boys with nice cars and witty lies that make you fal every damn time.
But the truth is,
I wish I could say I was sharing my bed
with more than just an empty space.
and I wish I could say that when I looked in the mirror.
I saw more than just an empty space.
sometimes trying to be happy all of the time, wears you out.
and I'm in one of those moods where
"Hey, girl. It's gonna be fine...you're gonna be just fine"
would sound fucking wonderful in my ear.
but FUCK THAT. I'm making it just fine, on my own.
It's just more difficult this way.
This is what creates character.
and im all about the character haha
Im drunk and im sad and im osrry for this stupid pointless entry thats just going to start drama and more bullshit. But I dont know what to do.Im just going to give up. I HATE HER FOR TAKING HIM AWAY.Id hate myself as much as she hates me too.He used me to make her mad the 2nd time and ya know what? Im pathetic.Im fucking pathetic. PATHETIC. He fucked me over one too many times and get this... I dont care. I still like him soo much. Hes even stooped to the level of talking shit about my mom, and telling other people all the shit so they can talk shit about it and what did I do? NOTHING.
when Fallon said something about my mom, I walked 3 miles to where she was and punched some girls window in...while being intoxicated... and tried to beat Fallons ass.We were actually good fucking friends man.But i cut her off. Why dont I hang out with her anymore, because she talked about my mom. Why cant I be mad at Troy for it? Why cant I be mad at him for being so fucking mean and disrespectful to me?
BECAUSE IM PATHETIC