Lie Lie Lie
Sigh....
wOnder izzit stress coming up which makes my head spin...ache...I feel it's like going to crack...
So busy these days that I missed the 9pm show every weekday. Liked the part between Chen Song Ling and Zhou Chu Ming. Feel they look very compatible leh...one pretty one handsome..CM look rather cute in that image..which is unlike previous images in other shows. Guys always have this advantage of looking younger than their age. So nice.
"A lie is an affront to the soul, as well as an insult to the intelligence of the person to whOm one lies...."
You know it's so true....
Tonite suddenly have many thoughts...this entry is gonna be another one of preaching and procrastination...please X the window if you dont wish to read...dOnt read and end up being angry with me ok...sometimes so afraid of blogging now...u know..those who know just knows. Those who dont know then its okie.
Don understand why one lies? When there's absolutely no reason to...or when it's only for a benefit for themselves.
I very very seldom lie myself. I cant say I NEVER lie...but it's really seldom. Most of the times I'm so direct and truthful that i just offend people or hurt people's feelings, which I swear is not my intention. If I really dont wish to answer a question, I'll just tell you straight, or I just keep quiet. So next time you get it? Dont continue to probe when obviously I hesitate when answering...because I seldom hesitate whenever i answer questins...unless some tacky ones involving emotions...of course I'll hesitate when you ask me straight I love u or not..things like that la~
But at my age....I've already seen through many things. I no longer get into a fit whenever I hear a lie. Usually...I tried hard to act as if I believe...but at the same time my head will be bent down deep in thought or else staring at u, wondering why are u lying???
Is it really necessary? What do you gain from it? Do you really really HAVE to lie?
These 3 questions are always running through my mind whenever people lie to me. Sometimes its so transparent that I wonder is the person real stupid or I'm smart....disappointment follows.
I wonder some of you who are reading right now will feel guilty if you ever lied to me in the past....hahaha...shant tok bot them...because I dont want ..complications again...lie lie lor..its over..suan le..but once bitten twice shy...its difficult to place 100% trust again..whO can?
I shall relate one incident which happened in my previous co. at Transpec..because my colleagues dont read my blog.
When I'm new into the company..there are many things I'm not aware of. Boss told me all staff are equal here with exception of the 2 directors(he's 1 of them) and the sales manager. But I still ask because of my curiosity. Came to notice...though its a small company, politics still exists.
Every morning, I will catch the transport at Chinese Garden Mrt with another 2 colleagues. Whenever the transport arrived, Lucy and Mr Heng will be already inside the transport. The van will then continue its journey via jurong...to jurong point there where Cheryl will board the transport from the bus-stop there. Annie is always the first to reach the company, sometimes her husband drives her, sometimes she drives herself. And Cheryl sometimes catch the transport, but sometimes dont, appearing in the company before we all arrived in the mini-van.
Just a small small thing...but questions were already running through my head.
Why Lucy and Heng were in the transport before we alight the trpt leh, did they board it from other mrt station? Are there other pick-up points beside Chinese garden mrt and boonlay mrt? Why Cheryl sometimes take transport but sometimes dont leh. Her husband dont have car wat.
I dont remember whether did I ask Lucy about that doubt in my mind. I think I did. DOnt remember the details...but I just remembered she was being evasive at that time.
This kinda thing also NEED to be evasive???!!!
I'm incredulous...
Started to doubt thomas's words where treatments are EQUAL in this company. In the case of transport, it's certainly untrue. Because I guessed company's transport picked Lucy and Heng up from their homes as well as sends them home after work everyday while alighting us at the picking points. It later proved to be true.
But the thing is.....is it necessary to be evasive??? Oh my god. It's just a small thing. Lucy and Mr heng are both ard 50+ or ard 60yrs old. Its deemed quite expected and acceptable that they received better treatments since they served the company for more than 15+years. And they're really not young liaoz, even if they have serviced the company not long, I also wouldnt object to them being transported from their homes. But okie..I know maybe she's afraid that I will be jealous and will request for the same treatment, things like that. Abit disappointed upon knowing this fact....I look so vicious huh...
Okie..for cheryl's case, im curious too. Say I kpo or what...I asked her casually during lunch one time.."hey why you sometimes sit transport but sometimes dont sit, then how you reach the company one?"
Anyone wanna make a guess how she reply?
"oh sometimes I prefer to take the bus than the transport. So I took bus to work during some days lor."
*breathe deeply*
Now I have a serious qn.........do I look dumb?
Me...Fion Lim...do I really look like a dumbass or look like an idiot to believe such a thing????!!!
It's such an insult to my...my...brain siah.
What can I reply except a ..."oh...ic..."
MY FOOT! Got free transport dont take, you prefer to pay for bus rides? How believing it seems hUh~
After a few thinking here and there...i guessed that Annie must have fetched Cheryl to work some of the days. Because everytime Annie drives(her car will be in the garage), Cheryl will not take the transport but appears in the company before us.
Again..........
Is it really necessary to lie??? But again....I acte as if I'm as stupid as I look, act as if I dont know anything...until one day Connie by chance further confirmed my guess. I never actually go investigate such small things...but there's a verse which is really true, Zhi baO bu zhU huO, a.k.a, The truth will reveals itself one day, someday~. I'm totally not anxious about the truth, because I know it will uncover itself in time.
All this happened when I'm new into employment...like..a few weeks.... Through time I know them better, and they understand me more. They started to share things with me as well, because they then know im not the easily jealous nor the narrow-hearted or narrow-minded type. Annie started to offer to drive me to work or drive me home whenever she drives. Cheryl started to offer to lend me CDs which I liked. They, with Lucy started to share juicy gossips about themselves as well as the others. Im glad.
Haiz...speaking of which I'm feeling abit guilty for leaving the company like that without a proper goodbye. I got ann's, cheryl's, lucy's and melvin's no. but not the others. Wished very much to go back to the company to address a proper goodbye or else better, meet them for a sort-of farewell dinner...but my boss thomas will probably chase me with a broOm upon my 1 step into Transpec. Sigh.........
Still got a few incidents lah.....which I'm not gonna say...or else there will be SPARKS again...although I feel very tempted to say it all out...and finishing with a note..."YOU THINK I'M SO STUPID TO BE DUPED??!!"
Perhaps I've become more alert through years......
I cant help myself....i cant help myself to trust those friends who lied to me before, wholeheartedly. There's certainly no nice reasons behind their lies...I've thought about the reasons too...in many aspects...but most of the times even though how much I wanna console and cheat myself that they're just white lies..I will find myself facing.."in no way this is gonna be a white lie!!"
Sad right....there will always be this kinda friends around u...wanting to get something out of you for their benefits. You know...sometimes they really dont have to lie, they just have to tell me what they wished me to do without lying to get me to do it, I WILL DO IT! Provided that I feel its worthy to do it for such a friend like them la. But...sometimes...even though they lie, with me viewing it as transparent as glass...I still do it....silly right~ haha The funny thing is...those who lie really DONT NEED to lie..I hold them dearer than they thought so...they DONT HAVE TO LIE to get me to do those things they want me to do, they just have to ASK. And those who dont lie...actually SHOULD LIE. Lol. Sorry..are you confused? Heez....haiz....people who understand me will understand la...those who dont understand then dont bother...=P
Jess is one of the few whom I totally have no doubts toking to. I can totally trust what she says. She has no vile, no motives. What she says behind your back, she also says it to ur face. Straight-forward and frank but no hypocrite, like me. =P She really dont lie.....not even white lies...lol. Although there was once when I encouraged her to give a WHITE lie *winKz*...but she still insisted NOT doing it. I admire her for that.
CheerIoos Jess!!
#Note to...you know who you are
sorry I take back what I said then...
It's okie..Hate me if you wan..go ahead and hate me#
Oh shit..I got the piercing pain in my stomach again...wonder is it intestine prob again..its so painful..gonna take the painkillers which the doc from NUH prescribed me last time...hopefully I wont have to go hospital again..
wOnder izzit stress coming up which makes my head spin...ache...I feel it's like going to crack...
So busy these days that I missed the 9pm show every weekday. Liked the part between Chen Song Ling and Zhou Chu Ming. Feel they look very compatible leh...one pretty one handsome..CM look rather cute in that image..which is unlike previous images in other shows. Guys always have this advantage of looking younger than their age. So nice.
"A lie is an affront to the soul, as well as an insult to the intelligence of the person to whOm one lies...."
You know it's so true....
Tonite suddenly have many thoughts...this entry is gonna be another one of preaching and procrastination...please X the window if you dont wish to read...dOnt read and end up being angry with me ok...sometimes so afraid of blogging now...u know..those who know just knows. Those who dont know then its okie.
Don understand why one lies? When there's absolutely no reason to...or when it's only for a benefit for themselves.
I very very seldom lie myself. I cant say I NEVER lie...but it's really seldom. Most of the times I'm so direct and truthful that i just offend people or hurt people's feelings, which I swear is not my intention. If I really dont wish to answer a question, I'll just tell you straight, or I just keep quiet. So next time you get it? Dont continue to probe when obviously I hesitate when answering...because I seldom hesitate whenever i answer questins...unless some tacky ones involving emotions...of course I'll hesitate when you ask me straight I love u or not..things like that la~
But at my age....I've already seen through many things. I no longer get into a fit whenever I hear a lie. Usually...I tried hard to act as if I believe...but at the same time my head will be bent down deep in thought or else staring at u, wondering why are u lying???
Is it really necessary? What do you gain from it? Do you really really HAVE to lie?
These 3 questions are always running through my mind whenever people lie to me. Sometimes its so transparent that I wonder is the person real stupid or I'm smart....disappointment follows.
I wonder some of you who are reading right now will feel guilty if you ever lied to me in the past....hahaha...shant tok bot them...because I dont want ..complications again...lie lie lor..its over..suan le..but once bitten twice shy...its difficult to place 100% trust again..whO can?
I shall relate one incident which happened in my previous co. at Transpec..because my colleagues dont read my blog.
When I'm new into the company..there are many things I'm not aware of. Boss told me all staff are equal here with exception of the 2 directors(he's 1 of them) and the sales manager. But I still ask because of my curiosity. Came to notice...though its a small company, politics still exists.
Every morning, I will catch the transport at Chinese Garden Mrt with another 2 colleagues. Whenever the transport arrived, Lucy and Mr Heng will be already inside the transport. The van will then continue its journey via jurong...to jurong point there where Cheryl will board the transport from the bus-stop there. Annie is always the first to reach the company, sometimes her husband drives her, sometimes she drives herself. And Cheryl sometimes catch the transport, but sometimes dont, appearing in the company before we all arrived in the mini-van.
Just a small small thing...but questions were already running through my head.
Why Lucy and Heng were in the transport before we alight the trpt leh, did they board it from other mrt station? Are there other pick-up points beside Chinese garden mrt and boonlay mrt? Why Cheryl sometimes take transport but sometimes dont leh. Her husband dont have car wat.
I dont remember whether did I ask Lucy about that doubt in my mind. I think I did. DOnt remember the details...but I just remembered she was being evasive at that time.
This kinda thing also NEED to be evasive???!!!
I'm incredulous...
Started to doubt thomas's words where treatments are EQUAL in this company. In the case of transport, it's certainly untrue. Because I guessed company's transport picked Lucy and Heng up from their homes as well as sends them home after work everyday while alighting us at the picking points. It later proved to be true.
But the thing is.....is it necessary to be evasive??? Oh my god. It's just a small thing. Lucy and Mr heng are both ard 50+ or ard 60yrs old. Its deemed quite expected and acceptable that they received better treatments since they served the company for more than 15+years. And they're really not young liaoz, even if they have serviced the company not long, I also wouldnt object to them being transported from their homes. But okie..I know maybe she's afraid that I will be jealous and will request for the same treatment, things like that. Abit disappointed upon knowing this fact....I look so vicious huh...
Okie..for cheryl's case, im curious too. Say I kpo or what...I asked her casually during lunch one time.."hey why you sometimes sit transport but sometimes dont sit, then how you reach the company one?"
Anyone wanna make a guess how she reply?
"oh sometimes I prefer to take the bus than the transport. So I took bus to work during some days lor."
*breathe deeply*
Now I have a serious qn.........do I look dumb?
Me...Fion Lim...do I really look like a dumbass or look like an idiot to believe such a thing????!!!
It's such an insult to my...my...brain siah.
What can I reply except a ..."oh...ic..."
MY FOOT! Got free transport dont take, you prefer to pay for bus rides? How believing it seems hUh~
After a few thinking here and there...i guessed that Annie must have fetched Cheryl to work some of the days. Because everytime Annie drives(her car will be in the garage), Cheryl will not take the transport but appears in the company before us.
Again..........
Is it really necessary to lie??? But again....I acte as if I'm as stupid as I look, act as if I dont know anything...until one day Connie by chance further confirmed my guess. I never actually go investigate such small things...but there's a verse which is really true, Zhi baO bu zhU huO, a.k.a, The truth will reveals itself one day, someday~. I'm totally not anxious about the truth, because I know it will uncover itself in time.
All this happened when I'm new into employment...like..a few weeks.... Through time I know them better, and they understand me more. They started to share things with me as well, because they then know im not the easily jealous nor the narrow-hearted or narrow-minded type. Annie started to offer to drive me to work or drive me home whenever she drives. Cheryl started to offer to lend me CDs which I liked. They, with Lucy started to share juicy gossips about themselves as well as the others. Im glad.
Haiz...speaking of which I'm feeling abit guilty for leaving the company like that without a proper goodbye. I got ann's, cheryl's, lucy's and melvin's no. but not the others. Wished very much to go back to the company to address a proper goodbye or else better, meet them for a sort-of farewell dinner...but my boss thomas will probably chase me with a broOm upon my 1 step into Transpec. Sigh.........
Still got a few incidents lah.....which I'm not gonna say...or else there will be SPARKS again...although I feel very tempted to say it all out...and finishing with a note..."YOU THINK I'M SO STUPID TO BE DUPED??!!"
Perhaps I've become more alert through years......
I cant help myself....i cant help myself to trust those friends who lied to me before, wholeheartedly. There's certainly no nice reasons behind their lies...I've thought about the reasons too...in many aspects...but most of the times even though how much I wanna console and cheat myself that they're just white lies..I will find myself facing.."in no way this is gonna be a white lie!!"
Sad right....there will always be this kinda friends around u...wanting to get something out of you for their benefits. You know...sometimes they really dont have to lie, they just have to tell me what they wished me to do without lying to get me to do it, I WILL DO IT! Provided that I feel its worthy to do it for such a friend like them la. But...sometimes...even though they lie, with me viewing it as transparent as glass...I still do it....silly right~ haha The funny thing is...those who lie really DONT NEED to lie..I hold them dearer than they thought so...they DONT HAVE TO LIE to get me to do those things they want me to do, they just have to ASK. And those who dont lie...actually SHOULD LIE. Lol. Sorry..are you confused? Heez....haiz....people who understand me will understand la...those who dont understand then dont bother...=P
Jess is one of the few whom I totally have no doubts toking to. I can totally trust what she says. She has no vile, no motives. What she says behind your back, she also says it to ur face. Straight-forward and frank but no hypocrite, like me. =P She really dont lie.....not even white lies...lol. Although there was once when I encouraged her to give a WHITE lie *winKz*...but she still insisted NOT doing it. I admire her for that.
CheerIoos Jess!!
#Note to...you know who you are
sorry I take back what I said then...
It's okie..Hate me if you wan..go ahead and hate me#
Oh shit..I got the piercing pain in my stomach again...wonder is it intestine prob again..its so painful..gonna take the painkillers which the doc from NUH prescribed me last time...hopefully I wont have to go hospital again..