FILL: Away from the Undying Lands 6/6
anonymous
October 25 2010, 02:04:49 UTC
“But seriously, Sherlock. Why should I mind? How is being an elf going to change how we live, what we do, the partnership?”
“I can think of several -”
“It doesn’t change how I feel about you.”
Such an innocent phrase, yet it was a declaration of something else. Sherlock looked at John, at the inquisitive turn of his eyebrows and the corners of his mouth. He could choose to ignore it - shrug it off, laugh it off with some witticism and things will go back to how they were yesterday.
Coward.
“John, I don’t know how much Mycroft told you about the circumstances that lead to his family’s existence -”
John placed his food on the table. “Enough to know that you felt strongly for her, and that you regretted what you chose to term that moment of weakness -”
“But do you understand WHY, John? If you were proposing to start something different in our relationship -”
John’s hands settled on his forearm. “I was.”
“I - I have no aversion to the suggestion - what I mean to say is that I find myself caring about you, a lot. More than I’ve ever cared for anyone.”
“Right.” John licked his lips. Sherlock knew it was an unconscious action on John’s part - something he tended to do whenever he was nervous, or anticipatory. Yet it sent a shiver up his spine.
“You have to understand that my people did not view sex and relationships in the same way as any other species. Relationships, John, are always monogamous. When I say monogamous, I mean one partner. Forever.”
“I - I think I’m following you.”
“Even amongst my race I was considered a bit strange.” He laughed, remembering words less kind being used to describe him. “I didn’t see the need for marriage or sex or any of that stuff. I was my own creature, beholden to no one. That was partly why I didn’t go with the rest of my people to Valinor.”
John nodded. “What changed?”
“With Irene? I don’t know. Even today I question my motivations. Everyday I am consumed with guilt over my actions, my abandonment of her. Even though we had only one night together - it hurt John when she died. It hurt physically in a way humans cannot understand. And now, I find I cannot go through it again. To be with a mortal, to suffer the pain of separation or death.”
Disappointment flickered across John’s face. “Mycroft seems to think -”
“I know what Mycroft thinks,” Sherlock snapped.
John reached up to cup Sherlock’s face in his hands. Sherlock marvelled at how such a rough and calloused palm can touch him so tenderly. “Sherlock - are you afraid that I might leave you?”
“Everyone leaves me.”
“Death is unavoidable.”
“I know.”
“I can’t become immortal, Sherlock, but if it’s lifelong commitment you’re looking for, then I promise, I swear that I will not abandon you. If you don’t want to take it to the physical level, I understand. But I am yours, Sherlock, for the rest of my life.”
What could he say to that? John Watson, the most incredible man he’d ever meet. The most incredible being he’d ever known. He’d meet great Kings and Ladies, elves and human alike. But their light paled in comparison to this man sitting beside him, looking up into his face with and expression that could only be described as loving devotion.
“It’s like Beren and Luthien,” he murmured.
“Who are they?”
“You didn’t read the books in detail, did you?”
“Nope.”
“Good. They’re full of nonsense.”
“I thought that they were based on what you told Irene about your life, so you can hardly call that nonsense -”
“John.”
“Yes, Sherlock?”
“You're about to get your first experience of kissing an elf. I suggest you shut up now.”
Re: OMFG! OP DOES BACKFLIPS OF LOVE!sarlaniaOctober 26 2010, 08:49:29 UTC
Author here - awwww thank you so much. I'm de-anoning because I'm so blown over by your compliments. It was such a lovely prompt. I couldn't say no to it. :D
Oh God! *imagines an elf!Sherlock in your style and dies from the awesome*
Re: FILL: Away from the Undying Lands 6/6
anonymous
October 26 2010, 19:15:15 UTC
I am in love with this fill and you. Please, have babies with me and we will name them after characters from te Lord of the Rings and we will live happily for the rest of our days. But seriously. This is awe-inspiring. Thank you so much.
“I can think of several -”
“It doesn’t change how I feel about you.”
Such an innocent phrase, yet it was a declaration of something else. Sherlock looked at John, at the inquisitive turn of his eyebrows and the corners of his mouth. He could choose to ignore it - shrug it off, laugh it off with some witticism and things will go back to how they were yesterday.
Coward.
“John, I don’t know how much Mycroft told you about the circumstances that lead to his family’s existence -”
John placed his food on the table. “Enough to know that you felt strongly for her, and that you regretted what you chose to term that moment of weakness -”
“But do you understand WHY, John? If you were proposing to start something different in our relationship -”
John’s hands settled on his forearm. “I was.”
“I - I have no aversion to the suggestion - what I mean to say is that I find myself caring about you, a lot. More than I’ve ever cared for anyone.”
“Right.” John licked his lips. Sherlock knew it was an unconscious action on John’s part - something he tended to do whenever he was nervous, or anticipatory. Yet it sent a shiver up his spine.
“You have to understand that my people did not view sex and relationships in the same way as any other species. Relationships, John, are always monogamous. When I say monogamous, I mean one partner. Forever.”
“I - I think I’m following you.”
“Even amongst my race I was considered a bit strange.” He laughed, remembering words less kind being used to describe him. “I didn’t see the need for marriage or sex or any of that stuff. I was my own creature, beholden to no one. That was partly why I didn’t go with the rest of my people to Valinor.”
John nodded. “What changed?”
“With Irene? I don’t know. Even today I question my motivations. Everyday I am consumed with guilt over my actions, my abandonment of her. Even though we had only one night together - it hurt John when she died. It hurt physically in a way humans cannot understand. And now, I find I cannot go through it again. To be with a mortal, to suffer the pain of separation or death.”
Disappointment flickered across John’s face. “Mycroft seems to think -”
“I know what Mycroft thinks,” Sherlock snapped.
John reached up to cup Sherlock’s face in his hands. Sherlock marvelled at how such a rough and calloused palm can touch him so tenderly. “Sherlock - are you afraid that I might leave you?”
“Everyone leaves me.”
“Death is unavoidable.”
“I know.”
“I can’t become immortal, Sherlock, but if it’s lifelong commitment you’re looking for, then I promise, I swear that I will not abandon you. If you don’t want to take it to the physical level, I understand. But I am yours, Sherlock, for the rest of my life.”
What could he say to that? John Watson, the most incredible man he’d ever meet. The most incredible being he’d ever known. He’d meet great Kings and Ladies, elves and human alike. But their light paled in comparison to this man sitting beside him, looking up into his face with and expression that could only be described as loving devotion.
“It’s like Beren and Luthien,” he murmured.
“Who are they?”
“You didn’t read the books in detail, did you?”
“Nope.”
“Good. They’re full of nonsense.”
“I thought that they were based on what you told Irene about your life, so you can hardly call that nonsense -”
“John.”
“Yes, Sherlock?”
“You're about to get your first experience of kissing an elf. I suggest you shut up now.”
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(I wanted slash, but left it open so to encourage a fill of any kind. So you read my mind like a big ELF!)
I am currently busy making babies for you and kittens and puppies...oh! And art! Since I am now de-anoning so I can love you the RIGHT way!!!
(consider me Pown'd by you!)
*faints*
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Oh God! *imagines an elf!Sherlock in your style and dies from the awesome*
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I have a feeling we're going to have a new universe here. I see this spawning sequels! SEQUELS!!! Maybe I'll write one.
And ART!!! Pennies! I LOVE your art!!! HURRAY!!!
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I'm planning on getting this fixed, beta'd and posted to my journal.
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