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Basics
Name: ari
Age: 25
Location: east coast america
Three positive qualities:
√ good memory for facts/trivia/reference/etc & constantly pouring over books. If something interests me, I am all over it, absorbing everything & soaking up the knowledge. also technologically savvy (my parents like having their own private tech support); I'm totally happy and comfortable with my geekiness
√ insightful & good at reading people. friendly and loyal and the designated shoulder to cry on (even though it makes me terribly uncomfortable, somehow I am the comforter, who will also punch a motherfucker in the throat for a friend). I'm the good advice friend even if I don't always follow my own.
√ great sense of humor & ace at making people laugh. sometimes it's at inappropriate times, but hey, good comedic timing is good comedic timing. and I realize it's about half and half, people laugh with me just as much as people laugh at me.
Three negative qualities:
✖ too competitive and yes, okay, I might turn into kind of an asshole. I'm a sore loser and sometimes it seems like my happiness and the amount of fun I have depends on being better at something than other people. I like beating as many people as I can, but right from the start I will suss out my biggest competitor and set my sights on that person.
✖ intelligent but I either don't use it to my full potential or I use it for things I shouldn't and I'm disinclined to use it unless it gets me what I want. If it's something that doesn't matter as much to me/bores me/something I'm not good at, then I don't really try my hardest with it. I say 'fuck it' way too often and I'm unmotivated a lot of the times. I tend to jump from one thing to the next without really finishing anything.
✖ garrulous to a fault
Describe how you see yourself (go into as much detail as you like):
I am such an ENFP;
zany charm, typically very bright and full of potential, demonstrative and spontaneous, sensitive, people-oriented individual with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum, able to inspire and motivate others, they can talk their way in or out of anything, tend towards procrastination and dislike performing small and uninteresting tasks.
enfps have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. they are good at most things which interest them. project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. to onlookers, the enfp may seem directionless and without purpose, but they are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. they want to both help and to be liked and admired by other people. (can be more narcissistic than other types).
they are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting their older and more familiar emotional ties for long stretches at a time. and the less mature enfp may need to feel they’re the constant center of attention, to confirm their image of themselves as a wonderful and fascinating person.
I could go on (and on and on) but this app is going to be long enough already and I feel like it does it's job in giving an insight on who I am.
Describe how you feel others percieve you (again, as much detail as you like):
neurotic and can be socially awkward at times, quirky and hilarious, temperamental, caustic and intimidating, passive-aggressive, unmotivated, sometimes apathetic, has some premium dance moves and way too much pop culture knowledge, good at drinking games, narcissistic, judgmental, competitive.
Any beliefs or values that you hold strongly?:
being excellent to each other, equality and human rights, freedom of speech, finding humor in things, la vie boheme
Fears/Worries:
“What horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.” -- Sylvia Plath ( The Journals of Sylvia Plath ). Not living up to my potential and everyone's expectations, disappointing everyone who matters to me. Being forty and full of regret, of not having made my mark on the world or even just in my life. As far as random, irrational shit that scares me: elaborate underwater caves, you know, like in the movies The Decent and Sanctum. Also something grabbing my feet or ankles, like if I'm laying in bed I can't hang my feet off the edge because I am so paranoid something is going to grab me. When I go to sleep, I have to tuck my covers under my feet/calves to make a sort of sleeping bag pocket to protect me.
Hobbies/Interests:
european footie matches (FC Barcelona), making music mixes/fsts, reading/writing fics, bookmarking/archiving things, BASICALLY THE INTERNET, dancing (4 years of ballet, 1 year of swing, shaking my groove thing at dance parties and clubs, I'm very interested in taking tap), cooking and also eating, sports (swim team, varsity volleyball, equestrian, tennis, fencing, soccer, bowling, ping pong), history and psychology, traveling, broadway musicals.
Goals/Ambitions:
My goals and dreams for the future are always changing, it seems, so I haven't really made a habit of looking too far into it. I guess I just want to be happy and finally fully independent, to make my parents proud of me and who I turned out to be, you know, the usual. My short term goal for 2012 is to get a job, make money, and then get my ass up to new york and see The Book of Mormon on Broadway. Fingers crossed.
Favourite book/s:
All Quiet on the Western Front, Notes from Underground, Sharp Teeth, Where the Red Fern Grows, Harry Potter, Wraeththu, Good Omens, Generation Kill, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
Favourite film/s:
LOTR, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, Jurassic Park, Inglourious Basterds, District 9, Attack the Block
Favourite TV show/s:
The Venture Bros, Archer, South Park, Adventure Time, Law & Order, Southland, Luther, Sherlock, The Food Network, most of HBO's programming (Oz, war miniseries, The Wire, Boardwalk Empire, Game of Thrones, Rome, etc), Pushing Daisies, The Daily Show/The Colbert Report, RuPaul's Drag Race/Toddlers & Tiaras/Dance Moms/other guilty pleasure reality shows/competitions
Favourite music:
Mumford & Sons, Ha Ha Tonka, Gorillaz, Queen, Sigur Ros, Elvis Presley, Maia Hirasawa, broadway showtunes (my most listened to artist/album of 2011 was The Book of Mormon obc album), Kanye West
Either/Or
Safety or Adventure:
adventure, as long as I'm prepared for it. I don't like surprises or last minute changes (and I do sometimes micro manage things), but I hate boredom more.
Introvert or Extrovert:
At first glance, I'm a bit quiet, a little standoffish. I really do like meeting people and while I have a tendency of being very outgoing, I prefer to hang back and observe first, get a feel for people before making that social splash. And really, it's only when I have something to "hide" behind, a book or headphones, something that makes it so I don't have to be with others, that I'll let myself be as antisocial as I want to be. (I don't actually realize I'm doing it lol but it's been brought to my attention that when I'm in one of my aloof moods, I tend to bitchface at everyone.) Once I get to know people and friendships are made, it's a different story and the quiet, aloof person I was at first is hardly ever remembered. Ask any of my friends and they'll tell you how friendly and boisterous I am. It's a comfort level thing, the more comfortable and happy I am, the more extrovert I am.
Optimist or Pessimist:
Cautiously optimistic, I'm hoping for the best but don't completely expect it.
Follower or Leader:
I'm comfortable being a leader with people I know and I'm used to, if I know the dynamics and have experience with my followers, I haven't a problem taking charge and sometimes I can get very bossy and demanding. Ask anyone and they'll tell you it's probably better if I'm not actually in charge. It's just that I'm..aggressively competitive and getting the job done is more important that any personal feelings; if I feel that you're not contributing to anything or that you're not taking it seriously, I'll call you the fuck out. Also people don't really like being micro managed. As I've gotten older, I've gotten better at dealing with the people aspect of it, I've mellowed out, I think. I'm less of a dick to people, more friendly and encouraging and uh, nice. Honestly, I'm not a bad follower, but I am narcissistic and I don't always trust other group members to do what needs to be done and I can be the obnoxious outspoken person no one is really truly excited to work with. Again, as I've gotten older I've gotten better at dealing with people.
Hyper or Calm:
more manic than either of those tbh
Mature or Immature:
I feel like people see me as someone more immature than I really am. Sometimes people take me less seriously than I want, which is my own fault, though I enjoy the moment I prove them wrong.
Reactions and Interactions
How well do you cope under pressure?:
lol. well. this is what happens, usually: chainsmoking and little to no sleep and micro managing as a way of life (I've mentioned this before, yes.). I'll bitch and will seem a bit scatteredbrained (and when things get a little too crazy for my iron fist control issues, I will threaten your life or property) but I do tend to excel under pressure and stressful situations. I'm a chronic procrastinator so it's usually my own fault for the sudden pressure and stress. The night before I will hate myself and my life and every decision I have ever made, but the work I'll put out will be amazing and something I can be proud of.
How do respond to authority and/or authority figures?:
quietly and to the best of my ability, especially if I'm not in any position of power. I can be very contrary and stubborn and generally unimpressed by other people, but I know how to play the game. If you want my respect you have to earn it. All my bitching and eye-rolling and terribly unflattering comments will be made out of earshot and to those I trust not to go running off blabbering everything.
How do you interact with your family and friends?:
It's a complicated thing, my feelings towards my family. Sometimes we don't have the best relationship. We argue and/or ignore each other a lot, especially my younger brother and myself. My relation with my parents has gotten better as I've gotten older, for the most part. We're very dysfunctional. I love my friends, and I have a lot, despite being the person that I am and can be, though I only consider a handful to be really close friends. I feel comfortable with myself and happy with who I am. However horrible I can be, I can let them see that without any worries. There's a lot of laughter and fun. I would seriously do most anything for them. When I was younger, in high school, I was mostly a loner, not necessarily because I wanted to be (though if you had asked me I would've told you that it was by choice) I was basically the weird nerdy kid who was pretty much under the radar up until my junior year. Everything changed in college, though, when I met the people who mean the most to me.
How do you interact with people you don't know?:
as I mentioned earlier, I tend to be aloof and intimidating. I don't necessarily like meeting new people, or rather, I hate the awkward chitchat that happens when you meet someone and they obviously are more interested in getting to know me than I am them. When I need to be, I can be charming and approaching when I put in the effort or when I actually want to meet new people, but if not? I can be really off putting. It drives my parents and friends crazy. It's best to let me come to you and not the other way around. Catch my interest and let me put out the friendly welcoming mat first. You have to give me a reason not to immediately dislike you and write you off.
Do you tend to respond to situations in a more logical or emotionally based way?:
I try to respond more with my head rather than with my feelings because really, when I'm pushed to a point and I react emotionally, I feel like I start to lose whatever control I had over the situation and that people will stop taking me seriously. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I don't. It depends on the emotion and the situation.
How far would you be willing to go for the greater good?:
pretty far, I guess? further still if it benefits me the most lbr.
Sherlock
Favourite character:
Sherlock and Moriarty
Which character do you feel you are most like?:
well I'd rather not say
Which character do you feel you are least like?:
Mrs Hudson
Anything else?:
not really no
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