minor bitch session
so yeah, i owe you all a giant freakin update, but thats going to happen on one of those rare nights that I actually have sleep, w00t.
as for right now, i'm just in a really crappy mood and needed to complain to someone/the masses of the internet. i'm really really f*ckin sick of the spiraling downward where i'm constantly grasping yet everything is just out of reach.
i know that my brain is a conniving bastard and likes to mess with me, but apparently its been in a particularly feisty mood. its also been in cahoots with my hormones for some freakin reason, which has made the past few weeks just super super fun.
i just really need to begin trusting my instincts as to what i need, even thought it might inconvenience some one. i also need the balls to just swallow my pride & ask. i'll just get on that now :-P ...... ugh
i'll try not to disappear for ages again...
as for right now, i'm just in a really crappy mood and needed to complain to someone/the masses of the internet. i'm really really f*ckin sick of the spiraling downward where i'm constantly grasping yet everything is just out of reach.
i know that my brain is a conniving bastard and likes to mess with me, but apparently its been in a particularly feisty mood. its also been in cahoots with my hormones for some freakin reason, which has made the past few weeks just super super fun.
i just really need to begin trusting my instincts as to what i need, even thought it might inconvenience some one. i also need the balls to just swallow my pride & ask. i'll just get on that now :-P ...... ugh
i'll try not to disappear for ages again...