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gah. i'm so split about crap. i love it here, it's so much fun and the ppl are so nice. i went horseback riding today with cory and laney tonight and it was pretty much awesome. trotting on a horse is extremely bumpy... yeah. but my fencing... i just feel completely horrible. we did teams today and after looking at the score sheets i know i shouldn't be angry cuz i did pretty well considering, but i still felt like crap. it was like any point i scored was complete luck. ppl would tell me that some touch i got was really good with really good timing and all but i really had no idea what i did. i could never do it again... at least not consciously. this sucks so much. but then there are still other things that make me incredibly happy. even if i don't really know anything... blah.