Long Overdue Update
As always, I'm not good with updating this thing anymore. Been busy getting back into the swing of working. I got a job working back at Jimmy John's, but this time, I'm at a different location and I got the hours I wanted. I'm still doing the same thing I did at the other location--inshop crew member and back up driver. I make tips for being a driver, but don't get many deliveries on the days that I do do back up. I'm not complaining too much about it. Just kind of use that money for gas in my car and such.
Anyways, Emmitt and I are getting divorced. Yes, you heard right--divorced. He and I just aren't meant for each other anymore and we're better off friends. Well, right now, that friends thing isn't working out too well. He's already moved onto another chick and I at least have respect for myself to not jump into anything and to wait until I'm ready to date again. Plus, we're not officially divorced yet. Just working on the paperwork to get divorced. Another reason this is happening is because he's a liar, has anger issues, and other things. He never wanted to seek help for his problems. He claimed he didn't have any problems, but he was just denying it. Also, we haven't been the same since he's gotten back from Iraq anyways. So, since February 21st(Mardi Gras Parade Day here in St. Louis), I've been back at my parents house. It sucks, but I mean, I just couldn't be with him anymore. He mentally and physically abused me. There would be mornings I would wake up with bruises all over me and I wouldn't know how I got them. He also threatened to choak me and to throw me out the window of our apartment. That's when I knew he has problems and I had to act fast. I guess what they say about high school sweethearts isn't true--they really don't last forever. It's been 8 years total we've been together--almost 3 of which we were married. Oh well. Like I said, I'm not looking to jump into another relationship anytime soon. I need to get my priorities straight and get my bills paid off before anything.
On a sadder note, my great-great grandfather has been dead 15 years today. For the past 14 years, none of us has gone to the cemetary. I'm gonna go when I wake up later. I feel the need to pay my respects to him after all these years. Plus, he and I were really close. I was close with my great-great grandmother as well. She'll be dead 10 years this coming September. I miss them both very much. They used to live almost directly across the street from my parents house. I would help my mom take care of them both when they both started getting sick. It's sad when you lose a loved one and then when the anniversary of their death comes around, you remember all the times you had with them and then you cry over it. Yeah, that's exactly what I'm doing right now----crying. It sucks, but I know life goes on and just to live each day one day at a time.
Anyways, Emmitt and I are getting divorced. Yes, you heard right--divorced. He and I just aren't meant for each other anymore and we're better off friends. Well, right now, that friends thing isn't working out too well. He's already moved onto another chick and I at least have respect for myself to not jump into anything and to wait until I'm ready to date again. Plus, we're not officially divorced yet. Just working on the paperwork to get divorced. Another reason this is happening is because he's a liar, has anger issues, and other things. He never wanted to seek help for his problems. He claimed he didn't have any problems, but he was just denying it. Also, we haven't been the same since he's gotten back from Iraq anyways. So, since February 21st(Mardi Gras Parade Day here in St. Louis), I've been back at my parents house. It sucks, but I mean, I just couldn't be with him anymore. He mentally and physically abused me. There would be mornings I would wake up with bruises all over me and I wouldn't know how I got them. He also threatened to choak me and to throw me out the window of our apartment. That's when I knew he has problems and I had to act fast. I guess what they say about high school sweethearts isn't true--they really don't last forever. It's been 8 years total we've been together--almost 3 of which we were married. Oh well. Like I said, I'm not looking to jump into another relationship anytime soon. I need to get my priorities straight and get my bills paid off before anything.
On a sadder note, my great-great grandfather has been dead 15 years today. For the past 14 years, none of us has gone to the cemetary. I'm gonna go when I wake up later. I feel the need to pay my respects to him after all these years. Plus, he and I were really close. I was close with my great-great grandmother as well. She'll be dead 10 years this coming September. I miss them both very much. They used to live almost directly across the street from my parents house. I would help my mom take care of them both when they both started getting sick. It's sad when you lose a loved one and then when the anniversary of their death comes around, you remember all the times you had with them and then you cry over it. Yeah, that's exactly what I'm doing right now----crying. It sucks, but I know life goes on and just to live each day one day at a time.