Pimpelipompelit(*) of the month
*) Wää. Off to work tomorrow. Again. Morning shift. Gotta wake up 6 a.m. Shiiet.
I've been doing awfully lot of work lately. There was one really warm week over here, like +25C the whole week and I had evening shift every day. Dammit. I guess this means I'm little more grown-up than before.-_-
*) Still I haven't been able to save any money for my exchange year. I officially SUCK at budgeting. People in Japan, how much did you have money saved up before you left there? Which reminds me that I should buy my air tickets.. which is like 800 €. Nice.
*) Other thing that bothers me besides my non-existing sense of money is that I've completely stopped writing my Master's Thesis. I don't even think about it anymore except when I yet again come to conclusion that I still haven't started doing it. I have my excuses, oh yes. Last Friday there was this book exam which was really important and I had to study and I had no time to do anything else, no-no.
*) When actually I didn't even study to that exam so well and now I fear what kind of grade will I get.
*) In fact all I did was spend time with A who is just wonderful and all. So yes, now-a-days I concentrate on my boy and working at the expense of my studies and graduation (and going to gym).
*) And actually... I don't give a damn.
*) Because this little calculation I made told me that after 3 months I'm off to different side of the globe and I'll be there for 9 months. When I leave we've been together 5 and half months SO then we will be longer apart from each other than together. And that my friends is just not cool. Not cool at all.
So yeah I want to spend time with him and do all them nice things together and go and see people and go and visit places as long as it is possible. Because I don't know what will happen after the exchange year, maybe I'll choke on chopstick or there will be an earth quake or tsunami or the stock will go down and the 3rd world war will break and I will never see him again. Or the love dies, oh yes it's possible, and then we'll move on and I'm never going to feel this way again. With anyone.
Love really is like a drug because it feels like I'm not thinking straight right now.
Still I know I must leave. I'll never forgive myself for not going there and he'll never forgive himself if he'd make me stay. So I've started to mourn already. Silently. I don't know where I will move after the exchange year. Or to do what. Is it working or studying.. Are these the last months I'll ever live in Joensuu?
*) Earlier I'd have been terrified of this kind of rootlessness but now I don't.. think it that way. Actually I feel that this is a new beginning, a chance. My Zen has reached yet another level, ppl!
When all this positiveness ends I'm really going to need the panic button.
Yours sincerely,
L
I've been doing awfully lot of work lately. There was one really warm week over here, like +25C the whole week and I had evening shift every day. Dammit. I guess this means I'm little more grown-up than before.-_-
*) Still I haven't been able to save any money for my exchange year. I officially SUCK at budgeting. People in Japan, how much did you have money saved up before you left there? Which reminds me that I should buy my air tickets.. which is like 800 €. Nice.
*) Other thing that bothers me besides my non-existing sense of money is that I've completely stopped writing my Master's Thesis. I don't even think about it anymore except when I yet again come to conclusion that I still haven't started doing it. I have my excuses, oh yes. Last Friday there was this book exam which was really important and I had to study and I had no time to do anything else, no-no.
*) When actually I didn't even study to that exam so well and now I fear what kind of grade will I get.
*) In fact all I did was spend time with A who is just wonderful and all. So yes, now-a-days I concentrate on my boy and working at the expense of my studies and graduation (and going to gym).
*) And actually... I don't give a damn.
*) Because this little calculation I made told me that after 3 months I'm off to different side of the globe and I'll be there for 9 months. When I leave we've been together 5 and half months SO then we will be longer apart from each other than together. And that my friends is just not cool. Not cool at all.
So yeah I want to spend time with him and do all them nice things together and go and see people and go and visit places as long as it is possible. Because I don't know what will happen after the exchange year, maybe I'll choke on chopstick or there will be an earth quake or tsunami or the stock will go down and the 3rd world war will break and I will never see him again. Or the love dies, oh yes it's possible, and then we'll move on and I'm never going to feel this way again. With anyone.
Love really is like a drug because it feels like I'm not thinking straight right now.
Still I know I must leave. I'll never forgive myself for not going there and he'll never forgive himself if he'd make me stay. So I've started to mourn already. Silently. I don't know where I will move after the exchange year. Or to do what. Is it working or studying.. Are these the last months I'll ever live in Joensuu?
*) Earlier I'd have been terrified of this kind of rootlessness but now I don't.. think it that way. Actually I feel that this is a new beginning, a chance. My Zen has reached yet another level, ppl!
When all this positiveness ends I'm really going to need the panic button.
Yours sincerely,
L