Am I just over reacting?
Ooh darn it. It's the one time you go and try to find out what has happened in the world while you were looking the other way and everything has gone bad. :/
It's about WWE.
I used to watch Smackdown and Raw when I was at senior high because my roomie got me into it. First I was like yeah why bother watching something like this? It's fake and everything's organized. Then I realized that that's the way I'm supposed to watch it. It's entertainment. Slowly the marvelous characters of this one big soap opera show won me over.
My favorites were Rey Mysterio, Eddie Guerrero and Chris Benoit. After the first crush my attention slowly faded but I kept loving these characters.
Then bang. One of my ultimate favorite wrestles Eddie Guerrero dies on 2005. Just like that. It was a heart attack. And I didn't even know it at once. It was after weeks my friend told me about it. So - I never got to see the special Eddie episode they played but I had heard that it was really touching. So I went to Youtube last night to see if there's any videos of it. There was and it was really difficult to see how all the wrestles were crying on stage. Damn.
Then duh I read some comments and what? There's some talk about Eddie and Chris(?) being the best they had. Chris? What's he got to do with this? So I went to Wikipedia (Yes, using all the general pages) to read about him and BANG, he's dead as well. Died last summer. AND it was a suicide. AND goddammit he took his wife and little son with him! Drugged and strangled them.
What the hell is going on here? Why? How didn't I know? Whaa..!
SO. I was feeling reeeally down last night and Miika of course didn't know anything about wwe world or these wrestles and couldn't help or understood anything I was saying. It's just so difficult to understand. It's so difficult to understand why this is so important to me. Well I followed their careers for so long, really cheered them to win and liked them. I knew then at some level, at least it felt so. Now it feels like someone stole them from me without even telling me about it. And it seems I never knew them. Eddie had his drug problems but they were in his past. Still his heart failed because of them. But this Benoit case.. How could one do such thing? I was his fan. I had a goddammit Rapid Wolverine -placard when we went to see Raw at Helsinki. It feels twisted. I cheered for a man who later on murdered his loved ones.
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*sigh*
Diih.. Miika made donuts today and they're reeeaally bad.
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My first writing in Japanese. It says that I first ate hamburgers in Hesburger and then I ate in Amarillo and that I like Japanese movies and that Ichi was frightening and that Kurosawa's Ran was interesting. I'm so talented. *facepalm*
