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well summer has been going by pretty fast already. I am done with summer school after today. I have to go turn in my 20 page paper :-D and then thats it! I need to go out on the hunt this weekend and all of next week and seriously find a job...otherwise i have to go back to mcnutt! which seriously put me through a depression last summer.....so i really dont want to do that.
I've realized the other day just how lucky I truly am. I love my family and friends so much its ridiculous. I am really sad that Nicole is going to Detroit for the rest of the summer. I feel like I didn't see her that much anyway this summer because of summer school, but now I cant see her at all. This is just a glimps of what I am going to have to deal with for the rest of my life, after senior year. Nicole and I have always been together. And same with Lisa and I. I've always had them right by my side since elementary school. Nicole is going to be with the love of her life next year in Michigan, and Lisa is traveling the world to Australia....and then theres me. I am not going ANYWHERE with ANY LOVE of my life, or to another country...well who konws. if i ever get a job maybe i can save up to travel lol. Its weird...i feel so behind all of my friends right now.
Sometimes it really does scare me that i have no clue what is giong to happen after next year...but at the same time, it is kinda fun. I have always thought i would know all the answers...and now I am not sure what the question even is. Life is full of unexpected surprises.....
So I would just like to throw this out there...it is crazy being 21 and being able to go to the bars whenever I want just for a drink. Monday night ashley and I went to the bird to meet up with jory for a drink. It was crazy cuz I never could have done that before. I didnt need to get drunk or anything, but it was fun to just go out on a monday night. and yes, ashley had a final on thursday and i had a 20 page paper due on thursday...but guess what? we went out, had a great time, and still accomplished what we had to get done on thursday. basically we rock lol right ash? hahah. i am not so sure how much ill be able to do that next semester...my schedule is kinda full. but at least i have the option now :-D
I just got really sad all of a sudden when I started thinking about old friends that I dont talk to anymore...one inparticular....I miss him so much and I hate how Im hardly ever going to see/talk to him for the rest of my life. It will be sad to attend our 10 year reunion and feel awkward seeing each other because so much has happened between the times we havent talked....and thats life i guess
so game plan for today....class, look for job, go groccery shopping, possibly out with ash, seeing my kristi ann for a little bit...and then who konws :-D
I've realized the other day just how lucky I truly am. I love my family and friends so much its ridiculous. I am really sad that Nicole is going to Detroit for the rest of the summer. I feel like I didn't see her that much anyway this summer because of summer school, but now I cant see her at all. This is just a glimps of what I am going to have to deal with for the rest of my life, after senior year. Nicole and I have always been together. And same with Lisa and I. I've always had them right by my side since elementary school. Nicole is going to be with the love of her life next year in Michigan, and Lisa is traveling the world to Australia....and then theres me. I am not going ANYWHERE with ANY LOVE of my life, or to another country...well who konws. if i ever get a job maybe i can save up to travel lol. Its weird...i feel so behind all of my friends right now.
Sometimes it really does scare me that i have no clue what is giong to happen after next year...but at the same time, it is kinda fun. I have always thought i would know all the answers...and now I am not sure what the question even is. Life is full of unexpected surprises.....
So I would just like to throw this out there...it is crazy being 21 and being able to go to the bars whenever I want just for a drink. Monday night ashley and I went to the bird to meet up with jory for a drink. It was crazy cuz I never could have done that before. I didnt need to get drunk or anything, but it was fun to just go out on a monday night. and yes, ashley had a final on thursday and i had a 20 page paper due on thursday...but guess what? we went out, had a great time, and still accomplished what we had to get done on thursday. basically we rock lol right ash? hahah. i am not so sure how much ill be able to do that next semester...my schedule is kinda full. but at least i have the option now :-D
I just got really sad all of a sudden when I started thinking about old friends that I dont talk to anymore...one inparticular....I miss him so much and I hate how Im hardly ever going to see/talk to him for the rest of my life. It will be sad to attend our 10 year reunion and feel awkward seeing each other because so much has happened between the times we havent talked....and thats life i guess
so game plan for today....class, look for job, go groccery shopping, possibly out with ash, seeing my kristi ann for a little bit...and then who konws :-D