i need some answers.....
So you know it sucks when you call your parents for advice, and they tell you they can't help you anymore. I am in such a delima and I have no clue what I should do about this.
Here is the scoop....
So basically in 2 weeks I'm supposed to have my life mapped out. I need to turn in my application for student teaching. I could easily graduate in 4 years and start my future as a teacher. However, I really am interested in this whole photography thing and I really want to check it out while I still have the opportunity. But what if I don;t like it? Then I am stuck with an extra semester of classes that is a waste of time and money. But what if i love it? Then I can start my future exactly how I want it. But how do I want it exactly?
It is so freakin hard for me to even try and think about this. I always thought my life would fit into place without me having to think about anything.....and really, isnt that the way it should be? I mean no matter what I decide, it was my fate that I decided it this way.....but damnit it sucks making this decision.
Do I leave Bloomington early and start my life? Or do I wait another semester and play around with it for a bit? I mean it sounds like more fun and a good idea to stay and play around with it....but keep in mind kids..i pay for my own everything....and playing is expensive.
So when I aksed my parents for advice...this is what they told me:
"Sheri, I cant give you your future. Only you can decide that. I am always here to give you a hand, but I cant give you your mind basically. My parents are trying their best to give me some things to think about, like tuition, and opportunities and yatha yatha...but i was expecting to call them and they tell me...well here is what you are going to do and it will work out best for you.....damnit i wish that was the case.
I just always thought my life would go like this......grow up, college, get boyfriend in college, get married, start career, have family...etc etc etc....
* here is how it is going.....growing up, in college (who knows for how long), no boyfriend...boys dont like sheri......career....no plans for fmaily until i find "the one", and life is thrown at you day by day.......I WAS SO FAR OFF IT WASNT EVEN FUNNY!
and now that i have to think about this and make grown up decisions.....im scared half to death!
Here is the scoop....
So basically in 2 weeks I'm supposed to have my life mapped out. I need to turn in my application for student teaching. I could easily graduate in 4 years and start my future as a teacher. However, I really am interested in this whole photography thing and I really want to check it out while I still have the opportunity. But what if I don;t like it? Then I am stuck with an extra semester of classes that is a waste of time and money. But what if i love it? Then I can start my future exactly how I want it. But how do I want it exactly?
It is so freakin hard for me to even try and think about this. I always thought my life would fit into place without me having to think about anything.....and really, isnt that the way it should be? I mean no matter what I decide, it was my fate that I decided it this way.....but damnit it sucks making this decision.
Do I leave Bloomington early and start my life? Or do I wait another semester and play around with it for a bit? I mean it sounds like more fun and a good idea to stay and play around with it....but keep in mind kids..i pay for my own everything....and playing is expensive.
So when I aksed my parents for advice...this is what they told me:
"Sheri, I cant give you your future. Only you can decide that. I am always here to give you a hand, but I cant give you your mind basically. My parents are trying their best to give me some things to think about, like tuition, and opportunities and yatha yatha...but i was expecting to call them and they tell me...well here is what you are going to do and it will work out best for you.....damnit i wish that was the case.
I just always thought my life would go like this......grow up, college, get boyfriend in college, get married, start career, have family...etc etc etc....
* here is how it is going.....growing up, in college (who knows for how long), no boyfriend...boys dont like sheri......career....no plans for fmaily until i find "the one", and life is thrown at you day by day.......I WAS SO FAR OFF IT WASNT EVEN FUNNY!
and now that i have to think about this and make grown up decisions.....im scared half to death!