HUH? WHAT?
Ok, so this morning after a horrible shift I had an appointment with yet another Specialist who has decided that I am a fascinating case. This time it's with an Otolaryngologist, (ENT) Ears, Nose and Throat. I sought him out because I've been having a nasty problem with my left ear (my "good" ear). A couple weeks ago I was awakened from a sound sleep by a searing pain in my left ear. It was quite reminiscent of a similar pain in my right ear that I had as a very small child. Only that time my ear drum burst, and I can still remember the screaming. What do you expect? I was only a little kid? This time though, I was able not to alert the neighbors with another blood curdling outburst.
A couple days later, my entire left ear canal swelled closed. It was extremely painful, I couldn't hear, I missed several nights of work and was put on antibiotic ear drops, oral antibiotics and Percocet for the pain.
The swelling subsided, I went back to my Dr. for a recheck about a week ago, also to discuss my repeatedly sprained ankle. Anyway, the Dr. peeked into my ear and said, " That's not right, no.", more antibiotics and a referral to see the Specialist. Which brings us to present day.
Well, the ENT took a look at my health history, looked at me, at it......finally saying, "My dear, you've really had a rough go. You really need a break"
I had no response for this.
He looked in my ears. back and forth and finally said, " You have an extra membrane"
HUH?
I seem to have grown an extra film of membrane in front of my ear drum. He then went into my ear with tiny, very pointed, terrifyingly sharp instruments to surgically remove said superfluous membrane.
OK! Whoa! This guy is as old as dirt and was probably Alexander Graham Bell's best school chum. He's poking around in there and it got to be just too much to take, so he stopped. He will, however, try again next week, but will medicate me so it's not so painful.
ALSO- I failed the hearing test. Again. I've never actually taken a hearing test that went favorably. "My dear, you need hearing aids. In both ears. I had them years ago when Amy was little. They sounded like cheap tin radios and i never wore them.
i hated them and I hated how things sounded.
Maybe this time it will be better.
What's the point of all this?
Simple.
If you think I'm ignoring you, I'm not.
If I say i didn't hear you and ask you to please repeat yourself. Please do.
If I misunderstand you, I'm sorry.
If I miss important information and screw-up, please forgive me.
If there is more than one sound, forget it.
If you laugh, I'll laugh because I don't want to be left out.
I'm not being aloof. I just didn't hear you.
Just love me anyway, please.
That's all I want.
It's all I've ever wanted. Inclusion.
A couple days later, my entire left ear canal swelled closed. It was extremely painful, I couldn't hear, I missed several nights of work and was put on antibiotic ear drops, oral antibiotics and Percocet for the pain.
The swelling subsided, I went back to my Dr. for a recheck about a week ago, also to discuss my repeatedly sprained ankle. Anyway, the Dr. peeked into my ear and said, " That's not right, no.", more antibiotics and a referral to see the Specialist. Which brings us to present day.
Well, the ENT took a look at my health history, looked at me, at it......finally saying, "My dear, you've really had a rough go. You really need a break"
I had no response for this.
He looked in my ears. back and forth and finally said, " You have an extra membrane"
HUH?
I seem to have grown an extra film of membrane in front of my ear drum. He then went into my ear with tiny, very pointed, terrifyingly sharp instruments to surgically remove said superfluous membrane.
OK! Whoa! This guy is as old as dirt and was probably Alexander Graham Bell's best school chum. He's poking around in there and it got to be just too much to take, so he stopped. He will, however, try again next week, but will medicate me so it's not so painful.
ALSO- I failed the hearing test. Again. I've never actually taken a hearing test that went favorably. "My dear, you need hearing aids. In both ears. I had them years ago when Amy was little. They sounded like cheap tin radios and i never wore them.
i hated them and I hated how things sounded.
Maybe this time it will be better.
What's the point of all this?
Simple.
If you think I'm ignoring you, I'm not.
If I say i didn't hear you and ask you to please repeat yourself. Please do.
If I misunderstand you, I'm sorry.
If I miss important information and screw-up, please forgive me.
If there is more than one sound, forget it.
If you laugh, I'll laugh because I don't want to be left out.
I'm not being aloof. I just didn't hear you.
Just love me anyway, please.
That's all I want.
It's all I've ever wanted. Inclusion.