WARNING: IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY COMPLAINING DON'T READ THIS
Normally I'd be happy about one more week of school. I guess I'm ready to get the stress lifted and all, but I don't know really how I'm feeling these days. What's bad is I'm the type of person to stress myself out over absolutely nothing. I don't know I guess I just don't know how to relax, and go with the flow. I find myself feeling pretty alone, I mean when I'm not at school and not at work I do nothing. There's always Shaina, but our conflicting schedules never leave us room to hang out. I'm so tired of feeling like this though. Not this past weekend, but the one before I went grocery shopping by myself at like 8:30 on a Friday night because I was bored. How sad is that? I know this all sounds like I'm complaining, and you know what, that's what it is. I complain, I stress out, I'm a pessimist, basically I'm human. I guess if you don't like who I am, that's your problem. Everyone always says it's your choice to do things to change how you feel. I'm sick of always having to be the one to change...for once I just want the outside world to change...even if it's not possible, that's what I want, and you know what they say, can't always have what you want. With all of these poor qualities of mine I have a tendancy to be a little overwhelming to the people around me. I realize I only hurt myself in this case, because I'm enough to make a person not want to talk to me. Other than that, this past weekend I went up to see Marc, it's always nice to have something or someone to look forward to. I can't wait til the summer, then I'll always have something to look forward to. I guess that's my update.... a little pathetic... yes