Fic: Hope
Title: Hope
Rating: G
Author: seramercury
Spoilers: Lifeline
Disclaimers: Nope, nothing belongs to me except the story idea.
Notes: This is Shep/Weir tag fic to Lifeline and it's dedicated to rory_elizabeth who is having a rough time at the moment and was really shaken by the episode. Love ya, Jamie! *hugs*
"Colonel Sheppard, we made it. The city's floating safely on the ocean. Excellent landing."
"Thank you," I reply, sitting up in the chair.
The day, no the last few days, were finally taking their toll. I don't even know how I'm functioning right now as I've had no sleep for nearly 72 hours. I felt myself get up and start moving, but I had no idea where I was going.
I should probably head up to the control room, make certain everyone's all right. I'm assuming so since Rodney hasn't called me in a panicked voice. Everything seems to be under control for the moment.
I stop walking when I realize where I was heading. I must be on auto pilot because I don't remember deciding to go to Elizabeth's quarters... I sigh and take a deep breath as I step in the room anyway.
I enter noting how neatly organized everything was. I had been in there once before when we were being kicked out by the Ancients. That seems like a lifetime ago.
Sinking onto the bed, I notice a family photo sitting on the nightstand. I reach over to pick it up and immediately recognize Elizabeth's Mom and brothers in the huge group. Tears form in my eyes but I angrily wipe them away.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect her..."
I glance over at the ornate vase next to where the picture frame had been. She said it was a gift from one of those small countries she negotiated a treaty for on Earth. Right now I want to pick it up and slam it against the wall.
I stand up, placing the frame back in it's spot and began pacing in the room. I could have, no should have saved her! Why did I agree to that mission to begin with?
Back on auto pilot, I grab the vase in one swift motion and hurl it against not only the wall, but a mirror as well. I move towards the fragments feeling as if that were my heart on the floor and not the vase and mirror.
I sank to the floor, relishing in the pain as the fragments bore into my skin. I was still trying to deal with the loss of Carson... and... I already lost one family, I don't want to lose another.
More than a family where Elizabeth is concerned. I didn't want to admit to myself it was happening because it didn't work out so well with Nancy. I really didn't think I'd be capable of love again, but it all changed since I sat in that chair in the Antarctic.
I close my eyes and let the sting of the fragments dig into my knees. I know this isn't normal and I shouldn't be doing it, but it helps the emotional pain slip away just for a moment...
John.
My eyes snap open as I look around the room. It sounds just like her, but I know it couldn't be. I slowly stand up and move towards the balcony and open the door. The view is beautiful but I can't really immerse myself in it right now.
John, don't give up on me.
I glance at the two moons high in the sky. I'm not sure where that voice is coming from, but it gives me hope.
"I will find you, Elizabeth! That's a promise!"
Rating: G
Author: seramercury
Spoilers: Lifeline
Disclaimers: Nope, nothing belongs to me except the story idea.
Notes: This is Shep/Weir tag fic to Lifeline and it's dedicated to rory_elizabeth who is having a rough time at the moment and was really shaken by the episode. Love ya, Jamie! *hugs*
"Colonel Sheppard, we made it. The city's floating safely on the ocean. Excellent landing."
"Thank you," I reply, sitting up in the chair.
The day, no the last few days, were finally taking their toll. I don't even know how I'm functioning right now as I've had no sleep for nearly 72 hours. I felt myself get up and start moving, but I had no idea where I was going.
I should probably head up to the control room, make certain everyone's all right. I'm assuming so since Rodney hasn't called me in a panicked voice. Everything seems to be under control for the moment.
I stop walking when I realize where I was heading. I must be on auto pilot because I don't remember deciding to go to Elizabeth's quarters... I sigh and take a deep breath as I step in the room anyway.
I enter noting how neatly organized everything was. I had been in there once before when we were being kicked out by the Ancients. That seems like a lifetime ago.
Sinking onto the bed, I notice a family photo sitting on the nightstand. I reach over to pick it up and immediately recognize Elizabeth's Mom and brothers in the huge group. Tears form in my eyes but I angrily wipe them away.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect her..."
I glance over at the ornate vase next to where the picture frame had been. She said it was a gift from one of those small countries she negotiated a treaty for on Earth. Right now I want to pick it up and slam it against the wall.
I stand up, placing the frame back in it's spot and began pacing in the room. I could have, no should have saved her! Why did I agree to that mission to begin with?
Back on auto pilot, I grab the vase in one swift motion and hurl it against not only the wall, but a mirror as well. I move towards the fragments feeling as if that were my heart on the floor and not the vase and mirror.
I sank to the floor, relishing in the pain as the fragments bore into my skin. I was still trying to deal with the loss of Carson... and... I already lost one family, I don't want to lose another.
More than a family where Elizabeth is concerned. I didn't want to admit to myself it was happening because it didn't work out so well with Nancy. I really didn't think I'd be capable of love again, but it all changed since I sat in that chair in the Antarctic.
I close my eyes and let the sting of the fragments dig into my knees. I know this isn't normal and I shouldn't be doing it, but it helps the emotional pain slip away just for a moment...
John.
My eyes snap open as I look around the room. It sounds just like her, but I know it couldn't be. I slowly stand up and move towards the balcony and open the door. The view is beautiful but I can't really immerse myself in it right now.
John, don't give up on me.
I glance at the two moons high in the sky. I'm not sure where that voice is coming from, but it gives me hope.
"I will find you, Elizabeth! That's a promise!"