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Sometimes i wonder why my best friend is a guy. I dont feel that they really truly understand what the heck is going on in my head. Yeah ill get over it but it is so hard to deal with. its just a challenge that i need to get over and well sometimes i feel like it wont happen. i wish and long for the day when we dont have to be apart and we dont have to go through the pain of being apart. Also why do girls have to be much more emotional? i hate it and i wish i wasnt crying about all this. yea i want to see him bad but in my heart i know i shouldnt go over there yet in my head i just want to be there now with him. sometimes i wish we were at the same school and i wish that we had the enjoyable chance of seeing each other every day. i think God is building a realtiosnship here that is to last and a realtionship for each other. I feel like God is telling me something with these challenges. That you are the one and there is no one who will be with me and be paitent with me and love me the way that you do despite what a jerk i can be.(and jerk does not even begin to describe how i can act sometimes.) well im done for now bc i have a crap load to do. im out