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Well well well,
it has been a long time since i have relased all my inner thoughts. im sitting here and it is saturday night well more like sunday morning but whatever and i just got home from babysitting. so mnay things are running through my head and things that i dont know if i should say and things that just keep repeating themselves. I NEED TO GO TO COLLEGE. i feel like everyone is moving on with there life and i am still here at home still sitting on my can can and not doing anything with my life and no direction. I know that my time is 4 or 5 days away depending on how you count it.
i am a person of reassurance especially when it comes to people i love. I feel safe when i know that the people i am around need me. It makes me feel secure about myself. i really dont know what i am trying to say about this but its going to be though and really im not sure i am going to handle this until i get to school. its so hard sitting here doing nothing and knowing that someone else is living it up. sorry but kinda kard to live it up at home.
I also want to be married now. this sounds so duumb but i want to know who the person is that i am suppose to marry right now. i think about it all the time and i just pray and wish that he is praying for me, for my heart, and for my faith that i would continue to seek God with all my heart.
Just a lot of thoughts going through my head. But when the day is said and done, i hope that he knows how much i love him and how much i am crazy abou thim. i can say it all the time but it doesnt come close to the way that i feel about him.
it has been a long time since i have relased all my inner thoughts. im sitting here and it is saturday night well more like sunday morning but whatever and i just got home from babysitting. so mnay things are running through my head and things that i dont know if i should say and things that just keep repeating themselves. I NEED TO GO TO COLLEGE. i feel like everyone is moving on with there life and i am still here at home still sitting on my can can and not doing anything with my life and no direction. I know that my time is 4 or 5 days away depending on how you count it.
i am a person of reassurance especially when it comes to people i love. I feel safe when i know that the people i am around need me. It makes me feel secure about myself. i really dont know what i am trying to say about this but its going to be though and really im not sure i am going to handle this until i get to school. its so hard sitting here doing nothing and knowing that someone else is living it up. sorry but kinda kard to live it up at home.
I also want to be married now. this sounds so duumb but i want to know who the person is that i am suppose to marry right now. i think about it all the time and i just pray and wish that he is praying for me, for my heart, and for my faith that i would continue to seek God with all my heart.
Just a lot of thoughts going through my head. But when the day is said and done, i hope that he knows how much i love him and how much i am crazy abou thim. i can say it all the time but it doesnt come close to the way that i feel about him.