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i can never be able to properly assess the future and what it might bring. This is an obvious issue i need to fix.
but, it's not that i am unable to try and see things like what certain things might do for me (i.e. education will be good for the future).
it is things like certain people talking to me and not being able to tell if i could have a relationship with them, and whether to decide to go through the gruelingly painful process of trying to see.
the worst part is for alot of them i have gone through that same process and don't seem to learn. But i just feel like there is something.
in reality i am probably wrong. I mean, if there was something surely one time something would have happened.
i can tell it won't be any different in college. But i can also tell said certain friends will seem to part a little. So i am torn between this sense of me losing them as a reason i should and as a reason against.
i can never properly asses the future and what it might bring.