Jan 08, 2005 03:19
She arrived in a brown cloak covered in cat hair, and left in the same. How it means the world to me that she traveled around the world to see me. How it hurt when she left and I was forced to retire to my cold and vacant room. Despondent and chilled, the room mirrored my emotions. I cried uncontrollably for about an hour, mindlessly ripping open my eight packages of Bonne Bell Lip Smackers and tossing them onto the bed. Finally calm, I consoled myself by constructing outfits I would never dare to wear here for fear of a greater quantity of stares than usual.
This city feels empty to me lately. I walk the streets alone, trying to blend in, trying to pretend that I belong here, when I know that I will never be seen as anything but a foreigner in the eyes of the majority. However, I am due to escape soon for tonight I depart for Korea to dance in sleazy pop bars and walk the streets of the 50s style nation.