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I miss it all. Everyone. So much.
I have been so busy lately that I haven't really had the time to just sit and think to myself. I've been convincing myself things are so much better. But I think I've just accepted things. I hate that. I wish I could say I love it here. I just wish I could. But I can't.
Reading Renee's journal today made me break down. The other day I saw Audrey on webcam and I can't even describe how much it made me smile. The last convo I had with Melissa was about how she wants to come down soon and it made me think about how they all surprised me last year that same weekend. I mean, that was without a doubt the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. And that is not an exageration. I've never felt so special.
I miss them sooooooo effing much! It hurts me like crazy that things will never be like they were. Mannnnn sometimes I would do anything to go back to grade 9.
I'm crying now. What the fuck. I sound so stupid. This will be almost 2 years and I still can't get over it. I know I will always miss them but....I just hate this. The wonder of what things would be like if I didn't move.
Ahhhhhh! Guys, we gotta talk. I miss you too much.
P.S.: I didn't want this to be about bashing RHS at all. Sorry if it sounded like that.
I have been so busy lately that I haven't really had the time to just sit and think to myself. I've been convincing myself things are so much better. But I think I've just accepted things. I hate that. I wish I could say I love it here. I just wish I could. But I can't.
Reading Renee's journal today made me break down. The other day I saw Audrey on webcam and I can't even describe how much it made me smile. The last convo I had with Melissa was about how she wants to come down soon and it made me think about how they all surprised me last year that same weekend. I mean, that was without a doubt the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. And that is not an exageration. I've never felt so special.
I miss them sooooooo effing much! It hurts me like crazy that things will never be like they were. Mannnnn sometimes I would do anything to go back to grade 9.
I'm crying now. What the fuck. I sound so stupid. This will be almost 2 years and I still can't get over it. I know I will always miss them but....I just hate this. The wonder of what things would be like if I didn't move.
Ahhhhhh! Guys, we gotta talk. I miss you too much.
P.S.: I didn't want this to be about bashing RHS at all. Sorry if it sounded like that.