the dark old days
I've been wanting to talk about this..
i think it was 2010?
when i just started getting into kpop..
that was like my darkest days..
like i have no money at all.. no savings etc..
my first concert was sper junior super show II in Malaysia, i was dying to go, i even already bought the concert ticket with all my money because when i ask my parents they were like 'ok, u can go if u have a passport' so i did it. i make a passport but after that they suddenly say 'no u cant go' so for the plane tickets and hotel my friend Jhe was oh my God so.. so nice for lending me the money.. even till this day i'm still grateful to her :)
well my story about that trip is in another post so..
i literally have no money..
was stll in college back then and everyday i only have money for transport, well i do have money for food but i need to save up.. so everyday, some of my friends usually brought food from home like a lunch box, and i, shamelessly go to each friend and take a spoonful of their food (with their consent ofc)
even when i was meeting jhe, she ask why i didnt eat and i said i have no money and she was like "omg! what do u want to eat? go eat, i'll pay for it" but i refused since i feel like i dont wanna be a burden too much.
at that time.. my parents were also having a money crisis so they cant give me more money and i dont wanna ask too much. i did everyhing i can do.. i sell my clothes, makeup i even took a job as a hair model lol which i'm glad i did :)
it was scary at first because i know nothing about being a model, i'm 5'6 so i'm not that tall, but i was very thin with a long straight hair, which they all chopped up to above the shoulder, permed it and color it to almost blond
before and after [img][/img]
i cant even remember when i started having money again and live a normal live..
looking back on it especially with i am now..
the things i bought.. all the shinee albums, even the japanese albums, fansite goods like photobooks, dvds, diary, even now the dolls..
people look at me and immediately said that i have it easy, always have money in my hand, even as i'm typing this right now with my favorite starbucks chocochip cream which 6 years i go i cant even dream of buying it since its hella expensive (pardon me i've been saying hella a lot lately) always ready when shinee concert suddenly announced.
like, no.. i know what it feels like not having money, please dont judge me like that.
but yeah.. looking bak on it made me appreciate what i have now :)
i think it was 2010?
when i just started getting into kpop..
that was like my darkest days..
like i have no money at all.. no savings etc..
my first concert was sper junior super show II in Malaysia, i was dying to go, i even already bought the concert ticket with all my money because when i ask my parents they were like 'ok, u can go if u have a passport' so i did it. i make a passport but after that they suddenly say 'no u cant go' so for the plane tickets and hotel my friend Jhe was oh my God so.. so nice for lending me the money.. even till this day i'm still grateful to her :)
well my story about that trip is in another post so..
i literally have no money..
was stll in college back then and everyday i only have money for transport, well i do have money for food but i need to save up.. so everyday, some of my friends usually brought food from home like a lunch box, and i, shamelessly go to each friend and take a spoonful of their food (with their consent ofc)
even when i was meeting jhe, she ask why i didnt eat and i said i have no money and she was like "omg! what do u want to eat? go eat, i'll pay for it" but i refused since i feel like i dont wanna be a burden too much.
at that time.. my parents were also having a money crisis so they cant give me more money and i dont wanna ask too much. i did everyhing i can do.. i sell my clothes, makeup i even took a job as a hair model lol which i'm glad i did :)
it was scary at first because i know nothing about being a model, i'm 5'6 so i'm not that tall, but i was very thin with a long straight hair, which they all chopped up to above the shoulder, permed it and color it to almost blond
before and after [img][/img]
i cant even remember when i started having money again and live a normal live..
looking back on it especially with i am now..
the things i bought.. all the shinee albums, even the japanese albums, fansite goods like photobooks, dvds, diary, even now the dolls..
people look at me and immediately said that i have it easy, always have money in my hand, even as i'm typing this right now with my favorite starbucks chocochip cream which 6 years i go i cant even dream of buying it since its hella expensive (pardon me i've been saying hella a lot lately) always ready when shinee concert suddenly announced.
like, no.. i know what it feels like not having money, please dont judge me like that.
but yeah.. looking bak on it made me appreciate what i have now :)