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Sue got a really good job opportunity which would have been $5 more an hour. They told her the position was hers but one one condition. She had to move closer to Burlington, within 20 minutes. That would put me way out of the service area for my own job as I have to live within a certain distance from work too. She was a little upset that they didn't tell her about the location requirement during the first interview. We tried to talk about it but I just felt a lot of pressure because I don't want to move that far away and I knew that she wanted something different and the money would have been nice but in order for it to work I would have had to quit my job and I can't do that. I feel bad because she left her family for me and moved an hour and a half away from them and I can't do the same for her. I've been at my job for twelve years, it is part of who I am and I have some what of a support system in place. Friends who I can talk to who in fact are more open and honest with me about what is going on in their lives, thoughts and feelings then what Sue is able to do and I also don't want to lose that connection. I hate disappointing her, especially when she said she could get a studio apartment and live there during the week. I didn't call her insane but felt that was an insane idea. What kind of marriage is that? Especially when the purpose of this job was to make more money and that money would just go for her to have a different apartment. Doesn't make sense. I hope we can move past this. I even told her she could always take the job and divorce me. She told me that didn't even cross her mind and I told her it did mine (obviously) because I felt I was standing in her way to reach her goals.