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Damn I ache this morning.
*groans*
Last night was certainly different, the fact that I was actually out of the house was different enough but what I ended up doing was really different. The slimmers group has occasional events at a health resort called Springs and for the first time I joined them for the evening.
The place was not too far away (15 mins drive) and I found it without issue, a good start. Very, very nice! Lovely country setting and impressive facilities, lovely looking layout as well. They had this lovely big glass floor over a massive Koi pond, fantastic (although I didn't actually dare walk over it with visions of a loud smash and me literally swimming with the fishes). So where to start?
I looked in on the pool area and quite a few people in there which put me off, self-confidence issues can be a real bitch. So the gym. Spent 10-12 mins on an excercise bike, then 10 mins on treadmill, used the various machines for a bit, and then on to find something else.
Grabbed a robe, donned the trunks and headed for the pool. Nerve failed me so I ended up back in the changing room and amused myself by reading the instructions
for the steam rooms and Sauna. Had a shower and hit the steam room for quarter of an hour, mmmm nice! Next stop was the sauna for another quarter of an hour ('
feeling hot, hot, hot' was a song lyric that certainly passed through my mind more than once or twice). Finished that and had another shower, hey if nothing else I was going to be really clean by the end of the day.
So that really left the pool and jucuzzi to visit, so this was the perfect time to scurry off and grab a couple of cigarettes for the nerves. Why so nervous? Self-confidence is a really difficult thing to overcome and even with the weight loss to date I am still packing WAY more poundage than I should be. But there was something else as well in the ever present stumbling block of my back, in many ways the fear of pain can be even more debilitating that pain itself. Gathering all the nerve I could I stepped out into the pool area, disrobed, studiously avoided looking at anyone else, and headed for the pool. Must have looked odd with my arms wrapped so tightly around myself and nervously stepping forth, hey I could have a future as a B movie actor in the role of the one soon to be butchered for stupidly losing the rest of the group. I'm in! Feet wet as the military would say, although far more than my feet were wet heh. Then I have to say the nerves really hit. I have not been swimming for what must be 12 odd years and I simply did not know what to try and do, i.e. what would be least/non-harmful to the back. Shit! Okay panicking, feeling like a right lemon just stood there up to my shoulders in water, and currently blocking the entry/exit to the pool. Finally I did it and pushed off tentatively, breast stroke seemed to be okay although I don't remember the simple act of floating in the pool being that darn difficult. Really did not dare try other strokes but spent the next hour just slowly swimming back and forth and notched up a staggering 10+ lengths (wow! like I could not have crawled that far and faster *lol*).
Time to get out of the pool then so had a quick flit in the jacuzzi, nice! Showered (again) and got dressed. Then it was time for the meal which was excellent. Smoked salmon to start, chicken fillet for the main course, and a mixed fruit desert. Good time as I had joined the others from the Slimming group for the meal.
I ache, but really broke through a number of psychological rather than physical barriers last night. Best of all, I think I could do it again. I like that place and so looked at membership rates, ouch!! 680 pounds for the first year (something like $12-1300)... not sure I can stretch that far. Going to check into a few other places locally and see what their rates are.
So all achey today, but it feels a good ache!
Now with the weigh in tonight let's hope that something else goes right *shudders*
Last but not least, a big shout out to Nancy who notches another year on the bed post of life today. Happy Birthday Nancy.
*groans*
Last night was certainly different, the fact that I was actually out of the house was different enough but what I ended up doing was really different. The slimmers group has occasional events at a health resort called Springs and for the first time I joined them for the evening.
The place was not too far away (15 mins drive) and I found it without issue, a good start. Very, very nice! Lovely country setting and impressive facilities, lovely looking layout as well. They had this lovely big glass floor over a massive Koi pond, fantastic (although I didn't actually dare walk over it with visions of a loud smash and me literally swimming with the fishes). So where to start?
I looked in on the pool area and quite a few people in there which put me off, self-confidence issues can be a real bitch. So the gym. Spent 10-12 mins on an excercise bike, then 10 mins on treadmill, used the various machines for a bit, and then on to find something else.
Grabbed a robe, donned the trunks and headed for the pool. Nerve failed me so I ended up back in the changing room and amused myself by reading the instructions
for the steam rooms and Sauna. Had a shower and hit the steam room for quarter of an hour, mmmm nice! Next stop was the sauna for another quarter of an hour ('
feeling hot, hot, hot' was a song lyric that certainly passed through my mind more than once or twice). Finished that and had another shower, hey if nothing else I was going to be really clean by the end of the day.
So that really left the pool and jucuzzi to visit, so this was the perfect time to scurry off and grab a couple of cigarettes for the nerves. Why so nervous? Self-confidence is a really difficult thing to overcome and even with the weight loss to date I am still packing WAY more poundage than I should be. But there was something else as well in the ever present stumbling block of my back, in many ways the fear of pain can be even more debilitating that pain itself. Gathering all the nerve I could I stepped out into the pool area, disrobed, studiously avoided looking at anyone else, and headed for the pool. Must have looked odd with my arms wrapped so tightly around myself and nervously stepping forth, hey I could have a future as a B movie actor in the role of the one soon to be butchered for stupidly losing the rest of the group. I'm in! Feet wet as the military would say, although far more than my feet were wet heh. Then I have to say the nerves really hit. I have not been swimming for what must be 12 odd years and I simply did not know what to try and do, i.e. what would be least/non-harmful to the back. Shit! Okay panicking, feeling like a right lemon just stood there up to my shoulders in water, and currently blocking the entry/exit to the pool. Finally I did it and pushed off tentatively, breast stroke seemed to be okay although I don't remember the simple act of floating in the pool being that darn difficult. Really did not dare try other strokes but spent the next hour just slowly swimming back and forth and notched up a staggering 10+ lengths (wow! like I could not have crawled that far and faster *lol*).
Time to get out of the pool then so had a quick flit in the jacuzzi, nice! Showered (again) and got dressed. Then it was time for the meal which was excellent. Smoked salmon to start, chicken fillet for the main course, and a mixed fruit desert. Good time as I had joined the others from the Slimming group for the meal.
I ache, but really broke through a number of psychological rather than physical barriers last night. Best of all, I think I could do it again. I like that place and so looked at membership rates, ouch!! 680 pounds for the first year (something like $12-1300)... not sure I can stretch that far. Going to check into a few other places locally and see what their rates are.
So all achey today, but it feels a good ache!
Now with the weigh in tonight let's hope that something else goes right *shudders*
Last but not least, a big shout out to Nancy who notches another year on the bed post of life today. Happy Birthday Nancy.