it's rainin cats and dogs...
if it were really raining cats and dogs it would be the most traumatizing
day of my life...even more than the day...well
i can't really share because then you to would have nightmares.
i went out wiht my brother last night...we did laundry together at this place in old town, and drank coffe and ate doughnuts from winchell's out in the cold. (don't know why, we could have just stayed inside but we're just weird)
But what i wanted to say about yesterday is that for the first time in my life i saw him as what he really is; not my brother, not a dad, not the prodigy son, but as an ordinary person. a man with dreams ,and responsibilities just like everyone else. and i realized how alone but yet happy he trully is. it's just strange to explain, how he left his family,his two kids and wife and yet it seems like he is the most calm and secure about himself as he has ever been.
he is as calmed as a hindu cow.
but it all just made me realize how relationships and marriages really are.
if how when you grow older family all of a sudden becomes important to you.
he told me how not loving eachother the same way as when they got married is not the best excuse when explaining why he left his family. well his wife because he sees his kids more than he goes to bathroom in a day.
but the things are going around the relationship is those things don't get fixed in time it fucks it all up...
then i thought how i'm i trying to make up a future with someone that doesn't even trust me, someone that well i cann't get into details now, but...
it all just made sence, how if we find ourselfes in asituation where
we don't want to be in ... we shouldn't
we only have on time to live (unless u belive in reencarnation) so we shouldn't live it miserabll eit should be great...
happy and being able to accomplish everyting we dream and long for with out anyone bringing us down ... instead of pulling us down by the shoes and feet ...with someone that pushes us up so they and we go up together...
as a team ,as a couple , a marriage , or what ever...
be the calm hindu cow.
day of my life...even more than the day...well
i can't really share because then you to would have nightmares.
i went out wiht my brother last night...we did laundry together at this place in old town, and drank coffe and ate doughnuts from winchell's out in the cold. (don't know why, we could have just stayed inside but we're just weird)
But what i wanted to say about yesterday is that for the first time in my life i saw him as what he really is; not my brother, not a dad, not the prodigy son, but as an ordinary person. a man with dreams ,and responsibilities just like everyone else. and i realized how alone but yet happy he trully is. it's just strange to explain, how he left his family,his two kids and wife and yet it seems like he is the most calm and secure about himself as he has ever been.
he is as calmed as a hindu cow.
but it all just made me realize how relationships and marriages really are.
if how when you grow older family all of a sudden becomes important to you.
he told me how not loving eachother the same way as when they got married is not the best excuse when explaining why he left his family. well his wife because he sees his kids more than he goes to bathroom in a day.
but the things are going around the relationship is those things don't get fixed in time it fucks it all up...
then i thought how i'm i trying to make up a future with someone that doesn't even trust me, someone that well i cann't get into details now, but...
it all just made sence, how if we find ourselfes in asituation where
we don't want to be in ... we shouldn't
we only have on time to live (unless u belive in reencarnation) so we shouldn't live it miserabll eit should be great...
happy and being able to accomplish everyting we dream and long for with out anyone bringing us down ... instead of pulling us down by the shoes and feet ...with someone that pushes us up so they and we go up together...
as a team ,as a couple , a marriage , or what ever...
be the calm hindu cow.