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Today I painted a sweet ass painting. but its not done yet...but it is effing sweet! and i will definitely post it when it's done. it is HUGE it is 4ft. x 4ft.!!!! i dont know what i am going to do with all these paintings when i am done with showing them in the art show. there are lots and lots of them. maybe i will have to sell them....but i dont know how i would ever part with them. they are like my children. i guess you could musically compare it to...selling out? in a sense. but i have emotional ties to everything i make and it would be so hard to do.
Last night...i went to see colour with the "ramblin' boys of pleasure" ;o) it was a good time until my mom/satan contacted me and ruined the night as she usually does. but oh well. i am over it now. plus those ramblin' boys of pleasure are one CRAZY FUN bunch. they'll keep you on your toes.
speaking of satan...she yelled at me because i am not "putting forth the effort to save money.and if i dont i wont be going to school" but its so god damn hard, when i have to pay her assloads every month and she wont even pay for food or any of those necessities for me. i am seriously considering taking art classes next year, working lots and then transferring somewhere down the road. i really cannot afford to go to school right now. and i wouldnt mind getting tons of student loans...but what i want to do isnt going to get me a job with steady definite pay. i dont want to struggle, but im sure i will. thats the price you pay to do what you love. it would be really REALLY interesting to tell my dad that i am taking a year off. he'd freak out. and so many people would be so disapopointed in me. i think they are already disappointed with me because i am choosing to do what i love, instead of something that is "practical." i am not a practical person at all. i dont do things because someone wants me to. fuck practical...but i really hate letting people down. i dont know anymore.
i work a lot this week...but i have friday and saturday off, luckily. or id probably explode!
i dont know what this weekend holds in store...some emmy and katie...maybe some others too. hopefully some sleep....i am SO tired. today i was so incredibly tired that i spent 2 whole periods sleeping in the nurses office. the other 7 periods i spent painting my huge painting...that's all i ever do...eat, sleep(sometimes), paint, work, play (sometimes). all i ever think about is art. wuhaha. I WANNA PLAY MORE!!!!! PLAY WITH ME!
"PLAY WITH ME!" -the speak and spell in the middle of the night
I wanna play the tambourine!!!! I wanna be a musical person!!!!
Quote of the moment:
"Fuckin' sweet!" (in the napoleon dynamite voice) -Jon