Upswing
I desperately need something to start going well for me. I see everything falling into place, but I'm not even close yet. I'm still broke, failing and depressed. Well then. VERIZON FINALLY FUCKING CALLED. I was getting REALLY worried because training starts so soon, etc. This guy Eric called me on behalf of Mr. Fred Lombardi whom I met. I'm so nervously excited. I just need to be myself and give it my all. I can't stutter though. After living with Amy, I start to talk like her. I just need to keep my cool. If I don't get this job, my life is over with. OVER AS IN OVER. This is the answer to my prayers right now. Hectic crazy answer. But the answer. Good Lord. I am suppose to discuss things with Matt tonight. Yet another answered prayer. Get me the FUCK OUT OF THAT HOUSE!!! God damn. Geez. I can't wait to hand in my one/two week notice. I still think I'm going to work weekends until the month is over with. Then HELLO VERIZON! Oh Lord. That means I have to get ALL my homework done this weekend. I still have rent due for this month. Oh well. Fuck it. Y'know what I'm saying. God I hate this shit. Two weeks left of this term. Hallejuiah! Ok, I don't have the faintest idea how to spell that at all. Next summer is going to be off the hook. I have to send my study abroad stuff in ASAP!!! No excuses. I kinda told Annie I might have a new job. I told Anthony today when I stopped in. He fully supported me. He hates working there too. We're short staffed again. About to lose one more. My back fucking hurts. This girl Kristi is going to give me a free back massage-she is certified and has her own table. FUCK YEAH. Maybe I'll buy her something to thank her. When I have money that is. This job is mine. is mine. is mine. is mine. I really need someone to sit down with and talk. I wish I had someone like that. Oh well. Maybe I'll talk to my dog.