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haha i forgot that we didnt have school last week cuz of midterms.. so i didnt really get a chance to update
yeahhsoo.. i have alotta schtuffs to update bout and unfortunately some stuff to vent about too
so basically.. dont read this if your looking for anything exciting..
last saturday?-
-went to laurel park to go sledding w/ nathan
-laurel park's hill is waaaay kooler than apple's :-P
-...even if it took us an hour to climb back up to the top of it lolol<3
-snow tackeling<333 okay.. i guess i underestimated nathan's strength a littttle bit haha.. but in the end.. i still won :-D
-met up w/ lauren, frank, and bryan later
-random hanging out, snow fights, tackeling, and ..hitting each other w/ sticks? haha
-oh! and i told bryan i'd give him 5$ if he got his tounge stuck on a pole.. and he actually did it!! hahaha ohmann<3
last sunday-
-went to the HS hill for some sledding cuz word on the street was that their was supposed to be mad partaying..
-got there and met up w/ billy, jess white, ursula and willllyyy
-insane amounts of wind, and maaaaaaaaaad cold
-went down the hill about a total of 2 times then sat in justin's car w/ lauren, billy, and willy
-willy tried pushing/running into the car a few times.. he is quite the crackhead haha<3
-me and lauren got picked up after only being there for like an hour
monday-
-no school!
-stupid waste of a snow day thou grr
-for some reason.. i didn't feel like going to yg :-/
tuesday-
-english midterm
-i deffinitely did terrible
-went to the diner w/ steve
-he made the walk though a foot of snow, when we couldve just taken the street, i swear just for the amusement of it :-P
-random appearence made by frank and bryan cuz they went to the wrong diner haha
-talked about ..'touchy subjects' <3
-i paied cuz i owe him 2 dinners.. but i must say, i got off pretty easy
-went back to the school and hung out w/ eric in the hallway for a while.. then was joined by lauren and roxy
-heard lauren's famous 'shoe in meal' story hahaha<3
-some annoying security guard w/ no neck made us all go down to the commons
-partay in the commons w/ me, lauren, roxy, eric, frank, gary and dan
-nathan showed up and we decided to go to starbucks.. unexpected surprise<3 :-)
-pulled an all-nighter studying for APUS.. if i dont do good... i WILL kill myself lol
wednesday-
-went into school with less than an hour of sleep to take the APUS midterm
-felt like i was dying during the test but i think did good ::crosses fingers::
-went to go take the pig test... gina kept rushing me through it so we would have time before the next test (i think i only ended up writing a paragraph for one of my essay's) loser :-P
-ran over to wendy's w/ gina, andie, and jenna and met up w/ eric on the way there
-met up w/ danielle, schoepe, and pat at wendy's
-on the way back to the school pat and schoepe decided it would be funny to pelt me w/ snow.. t'was quite cold.. losers
-and then when i went to beat the crap out of them when we got back in.. i was out-numbered and ganged up on.. yet the security guards STILL always side w/ them GRRR! ..apparentally pat has connections.. lol
-took the eco test.. a lot harder than the 1st one.. i think i pretty much guessed for every question :-/ haha
-after the test i hung out w/ amanda, jenna, eric, billy, pat and frank near the circle and the security guard w/ no neck harrassed us
-me and amanda left to go to starbucks and met up w/ nicole and victoria
-we thought we were gonna miss the bus so we actually ran there.. running in the cold= not kool lol
-got a cafe mocha :-) and walked back
-victoria: "there is a simple answer for all of this... midol" haha
-called nathan on the bus
-got home.. talked online.. got about 2 hours of sleep before i had to wake up and get ready for sea cadets
-maaad drugs... cuz fast food and less than 3 hours of sleep.. doesnt mix well ..not fun :-(
-meg picked me up..
-the captain decided we should all learn how to do color guard.. and since mcgaulpine's an asshome he made ME do flag.. which SUX if u have no upper body strength.. ihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehim.. well not really.. he was actually nicer than usual.. but.. UGH saeoifyvuasykiY
-ne waaayyyss.. so steve showed me how to do the whole flag thing.. he called meg over once cuz apparentally he couldnt help me "put the long pointy thing in the holey thing" ...oh the maturity. loll
-surprisingly i survived until 9 when my dad came to pick us up
-got home.. ate something to give me some energy to study
-started studying physics.. and next thing i knew i was waking up the next morning w/ no more understanding of physics than usual (i passed out 'mein')
thursday-
-physics midterm
-ugh i prob did okay and w/e but it SUX cuz its a regents class and out of ALL my classes thats one i should be doing REALLY good in.. ugh w/e i jus hope i got a 90
-there was some.. calculator confusion after the test haha
-nathan took the bus to my house "wohhhaa.. there's bus stops after mine!?" loll
-monkey being attacked by a crocidile.. uhm.. stop the crack.. now please :-) lol
-got home.. made easy mac for nathan cuz i'm such a good cook like that :-D haha
-..ur pacing again haha<3
-my dad called.. and i almost statred cracking up cuz nathan was doing impressions of me (my kick so doesnt look like that):-P so then i chased him around the kitchen and beat the crap out of him :-D
-AGAINST my specific instructions he ran to the back of the house and looked at my messy room.. twice! GRRR.. and apparentally my scream is very amusing? lol
-watched the butterfly effect downstairs cuz that movie is just so damn good :-)
-"i think this is a scene from Friends.."
-"so... u sure u dont wanna go to your house?" loll :-)
-walked him halfway home at 4:30
-called steve back later
-got really upset cuz some people, that i thought were nice people,.. have some very not nice things to say about me
and here is the venting part of the entry:
i really dont care if people talk about me.. at least i try not to.. i mean it happens.. everyone has summthin to say about everyone, its just how high school is. I guess i already knew that these girls didn't like me b/c of the vibes i got and what other people have told me but... i dont make it hard to ignore me, i really dont.. and yet it seems that these girls go out of their way to be nice to me. w/e i really dislike fake people. if u dont like me.. dont be so "why were't you there monday?" ..like u really care ..or so eager to make conversation and be friendly during class and in the hallways and by inviting me to ur parties.. if you're jus gonna say nasty things behind my back. so it turns out these people.. who seem so nice.. took a few facts they knew about my life and my relationships.. and came up w/ this sick, fucked up 'theory' about me, my sister, and our relationships.. i dont care what they know/think about fights me and my sister have had in the past.. this 'theory' they devised was downright discusting, repulsive, twisted, and hurtful.
The thing i reallly DONT GET though is.. why? not how they came up w/ it.. cuz i honestly dont care.. but why even take the time out of their own fucked up lifes to analyze, judge, and gossip about mine? ..i could understand it if my life had somehow effected theirs.. causing them to be angry or hurt.. and then naturally wanting to release anger by verbally bashing me. but.. ive thought about it.. and i cant figure out wtf i ever did to them (except for some crush one of them had on my boyfriend b4 i went out w/ him.. but seriously.. that cant be enough motivation to say the things they did). I mean.. i know tons of random fucked up things things about their lives.. just a ton of shit u hear from those gossipy friends every1 has, but never learn not to tell anything pesonal to.. but i dont sit around w/ my friends analyzing and talking about it.. b/c it doesnt effect me!
But the thing that really BOTHERS me is.. not that they were gossiping about me w/ their friends.. but that they had the nerve and lack of respect to say these terrible things in front of two of MY friends. not only is it a stupid idea b/c obviously my good friends would let me know about it.. and not only does it create an uncomfortable situation for those 2 people who had to listen to their friends talk about another friend of theirs... but i dont think anyone would want some1 to talk badly about them to their own friends.. i dont care what those girls think about me, i dont have particularly high opinons of them anyway, but it DOES hurt when those kinds of things are said infront of people that i DO care what they think about me.
So after talking to steve for quite a while.. i realized that if anything, i should be flattered that these people, who have no effect on my life whatsoever, have found my life so significant to them that they could take the time out of their lifes, and social functions to analyze and judge me. and i am.. honestly am.. truely flattered.
and then after talking to nathan the next day for quite a while.. i realized that it doesnt matter what people say about you.. b/c that can never change what is true.. and what is true.. is the only thing that ever really matters. Thereforee the only thing that really matters is that, despite any fights we may have had over this past summer and will have in the future, i love my sister more than anything.. and when i have no one in this world, she will be the one that is always gaurenteed to be there.. and that my sister loves me.. and that neither one of us would ever do anything to intentionally hurt eachother. and no matter what anyone THINKS they know.. that's true, and always has been. And what really matters is that i love nathan, more than anyone could ever imagine.. and that for some reason, he loves me.. and nothing anyone says, or THINKS they know, is going to change that.
-neway.. so i spent most of the night talking to steve on the phone and then eventually went to sleep
friday-
-no school!! :-)
-nathan was nice and let me sleep in a littttlle bit, before he called me and made me get out of bed :-P
-woke up, took a shower etc.. and started walking towards mayfair
-met up w/ nathan, was introduced the famous new ipod.. about 3468985365 times (jus a littttle obbsessed lol) :-P no, but i did get to hear a really good band from austrailia that i've never heard of before
-talked about maaaad shizzle, that i was having trouble deciding if i should even mention.. but i did.. and i ended up feeling a lot better :-)
-nathan found a used CD from that band.. and got it for only 5$
-i dragged him into claires for a few min to look at necklaces
-started to walk home.. and he tricked me by leading me to his house :-P
-went to nathan's for only like a half an hour.. hung out downstairs and watched fuse.. my mom picked me up
-katrina's sweet 16.. she looked beautiful.. really nice place.. unforchantally i was not in the best of moods b/c i started WWIII between my parents b4 i left :-/ ...then ..ya know how theres always that one person who reallyreally enjoys.. finding that 1 thing ur self concious about, zeroing in on it, constantlly bringing it up, telling other people, and shoving it in your face.. jus cuz it gives them some kind of satisfaction w/ themselves? haha yeah.. well that person found me.. so i was a feeling a lil uncomfortable thoughout the entire party.. and then people showed up that that made me feel even more uncomfortable.. noooo idea why.. i reallyreally have to work on this whole not-caring-what-others-think thing.. so ne way by the end of the night i found myself in that STUPID BUBBLE thing that i usually get at YG.. so that sucked cuz i wasnt able to have as much fun as i would have liked to.. but it was a reallyreally nice party
saturday-
-jen's b-day shindig!!!<333
-nathan picked me up and we met up w/ jen, katrina, ursula, kyle, and elise at the diner
-kyle grossed every1 out w/ his crazy african-way of eating waffles :-P (strawberry ice-cream, mapple syrup, and sugar) msfggkhxjdytukz.. freaaaaak haha<3
-we all rocked out to our ipods :-)
-every1 left for the movies.. me, nate, and kyle waiting for my mom to pick us up w/ lauren
-lauren offered all of us some of her maaad weird salt bagel w/ cream-cheese and baccon
-met everyone + bryan at the movies to see "in good company"
-i thought this was suppose to be a comedy... how come people jus keep getting fired!?! loll... yeah so it was a lil depressing at points, but it was still a pretty good movie
-the best part was DEF when he pushed over the lamp hahaha
-everyone left me in the bathroom stall when the fire alarm went off! "OMG MICHELLE THERES A FIRE" 3 secs later "....GUUYYSSS??" ::no one answers:: lolll
-so after we were evacuated from the building (exciting day, huh?) we headed over to wendys, which was the original plan ne ways
-got food, took emo pictures, played w/ the kids toys (those ladders were MAD kool), talked about arthur haha<3 and sang happy b-day reallyreally loud RIGHT b4 we left so that we could escape the weird stares loll<333
-veryvery nice day.. hope jen had fun.. cuz i looooooveeeee herrr<33 and i miss her.. a lott<3 :-(
sunday-
-sea cadets? i think
-it must have been.. cuz somehow i ended up being assigned to color gaurd.. not jus learning it.. i actually have to do the flag thing at some ceremony next week... o god.. this will be fun.. ughhh rdshgntiuaytlhrneurs
hookai well i need to go finish hw and shizzle if i wanna go to YG sooooooooo..
later losers :-P
yeahhsoo.. i have alotta schtuffs to update bout and unfortunately some stuff to vent about too
so basically.. dont read this if your looking for anything exciting..
last saturday?-
-went to laurel park to go sledding w/ nathan
-laurel park's hill is waaaay kooler than apple's :-P
-...even if it took us an hour to climb back up to the top of it lolol<3
-snow tackeling<333 okay.. i guess i underestimated nathan's strength a littttle bit haha.. but in the end.. i still won :-D
-met up w/ lauren, frank, and bryan later
-random hanging out, snow fights, tackeling, and ..hitting each other w/ sticks? haha
-oh! and i told bryan i'd give him 5$ if he got his tounge stuck on a pole.. and he actually did it!! hahaha ohmann<3
last sunday-
-went to the HS hill for some sledding cuz word on the street was that their was supposed to be mad partaying..
-got there and met up w/ billy, jess white, ursula and willllyyy
-insane amounts of wind, and maaaaaaaaaad cold
-went down the hill about a total of 2 times then sat in justin's car w/ lauren, billy, and willy
-willy tried pushing/running into the car a few times.. he is quite the crackhead haha<3
-me and lauren got picked up after only being there for like an hour
monday-
-no school!
-stupid waste of a snow day thou grr
-for some reason.. i didn't feel like going to yg :-/
tuesday-
-english midterm
-i deffinitely did terrible
-went to the diner w/ steve
-he made the walk though a foot of snow, when we couldve just taken the street, i swear just for the amusement of it :-P
-random appearence made by frank and bryan cuz they went to the wrong diner haha
-talked about ..'touchy subjects' <3
-i paied cuz i owe him 2 dinners.. but i must say, i got off pretty easy
-went back to the school and hung out w/ eric in the hallway for a while.. then was joined by lauren and roxy
-heard lauren's famous 'shoe in meal' story hahaha<3
-some annoying security guard w/ no neck made us all go down to the commons
-partay in the commons w/ me, lauren, roxy, eric, frank, gary and dan
-nathan showed up and we decided to go to starbucks.. unexpected surprise<3 :-)
-pulled an all-nighter studying for APUS.. if i dont do good... i WILL kill myself lol
wednesday-
-went into school with less than an hour of sleep to take the APUS midterm
-felt like i was dying during the test but i think did good ::crosses fingers::
-went to go take the pig test... gina kept rushing me through it so we would have time before the next test (i think i only ended up writing a paragraph for one of my essay's) loser :-P
-ran over to wendy's w/ gina, andie, and jenna and met up w/ eric on the way there
-met up w/ danielle, schoepe, and pat at wendy's
-on the way back to the school pat and schoepe decided it would be funny to pelt me w/ snow.. t'was quite cold.. losers
-and then when i went to beat the crap out of them when we got back in.. i was out-numbered and ganged up on.. yet the security guards STILL always side w/ them GRRR! ..apparentally pat has connections.. lol
-took the eco test.. a lot harder than the 1st one.. i think i pretty much guessed for every question :-/ haha
-after the test i hung out w/ amanda, jenna, eric, billy, pat and frank near the circle and the security guard w/ no neck harrassed us
-me and amanda left to go to starbucks and met up w/ nicole and victoria
-we thought we were gonna miss the bus so we actually ran there.. running in the cold= not kool lol
-got a cafe mocha :-) and walked back
-victoria: "there is a simple answer for all of this... midol" haha
-called nathan on the bus
-got home.. talked online.. got about 2 hours of sleep before i had to wake up and get ready for sea cadets
-maaad drugs... cuz fast food and less than 3 hours of sleep.. doesnt mix well ..not fun :-(
-meg picked me up..
-the captain decided we should all learn how to do color guard.. and since mcgaulpine's an asshome he made ME do flag.. which SUX if u have no upper body strength.. ihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehim.. well not really.. he was actually nicer than usual.. but.. UGH saeoifyvuasykiY
-ne waaayyyss.. so steve showed me how to do the whole flag thing.. he called meg over once cuz apparentally he couldnt help me "put the long pointy thing in the holey thing" ...oh the maturity. loll
-surprisingly i survived until 9 when my dad came to pick us up
-got home.. ate something to give me some energy to study
-started studying physics.. and next thing i knew i was waking up the next morning w/ no more understanding of physics than usual (i passed out 'mein')
thursday-
-physics midterm
-ugh i prob did okay and w/e but it SUX cuz its a regents class and out of ALL my classes thats one i should be doing REALLY good in.. ugh w/e i jus hope i got a 90
-there was some.. calculator confusion after the test haha
-nathan took the bus to my house "wohhhaa.. there's bus stops after mine!?" loll
-monkey being attacked by a crocidile.. uhm.. stop the crack.. now please :-) lol
-got home.. made easy mac for nathan cuz i'm such a good cook like that :-D haha
-..ur pacing again haha<3
-my dad called.. and i almost statred cracking up cuz nathan was doing impressions of me (my kick so doesnt look like that):-P so then i chased him around the kitchen and beat the crap out of him :-D
-AGAINST my specific instructions he ran to the back of the house and looked at my messy room.. twice! GRRR.. and apparentally my scream is very amusing? lol
-watched the butterfly effect downstairs cuz that movie is just so damn good :-)
-"i think this is a scene from Friends.."
-"so... u sure u dont wanna go to your house?" loll :-)
-walked him halfway home at 4:30
-called steve back later
-got really upset cuz some people, that i thought were nice people,.. have some very not nice things to say about me
and here is the venting part of the entry:
i really dont care if people talk about me.. at least i try not to.. i mean it happens.. everyone has summthin to say about everyone, its just how high school is. I guess i already knew that these girls didn't like me b/c of the vibes i got and what other people have told me but... i dont make it hard to ignore me, i really dont.. and yet it seems that these girls go out of their way to be nice to me. w/e i really dislike fake people. if u dont like me.. dont be so "why were't you there monday?" ..like u really care ..or so eager to make conversation and be friendly during class and in the hallways and by inviting me to ur parties.. if you're jus gonna say nasty things behind my back. so it turns out these people.. who seem so nice.. took a few facts they knew about my life and my relationships.. and came up w/ this sick, fucked up 'theory' about me, my sister, and our relationships.. i dont care what they know/think about fights me and my sister have had in the past.. this 'theory' they devised was downright discusting, repulsive, twisted, and hurtful.
The thing i reallly DONT GET though is.. why? not how they came up w/ it.. cuz i honestly dont care.. but why even take the time out of their own fucked up lifes to analyze, judge, and gossip about mine? ..i could understand it if my life had somehow effected theirs.. causing them to be angry or hurt.. and then naturally wanting to release anger by verbally bashing me. but.. ive thought about it.. and i cant figure out wtf i ever did to them (except for some crush one of them had on my boyfriend b4 i went out w/ him.. but seriously.. that cant be enough motivation to say the things they did). I mean.. i know tons of random fucked up things things about their lives.. just a ton of shit u hear from those gossipy friends every1 has, but never learn not to tell anything pesonal to.. but i dont sit around w/ my friends analyzing and talking about it.. b/c it doesnt effect me!
But the thing that really BOTHERS me is.. not that they were gossiping about me w/ their friends.. but that they had the nerve and lack of respect to say these terrible things in front of two of MY friends. not only is it a stupid idea b/c obviously my good friends would let me know about it.. and not only does it create an uncomfortable situation for those 2 people who had to listen to their friends talk about another friend of theirs... but i dont think anyone would want some1 to talk badly about them to their own friends.. i dont care what those girls think about me, i dont have particularly high opinons of them anyway, but it DOES hurt when those kinds of things are said infront of people that i DO care what they think about me.
So after talking to steve for quite a while.. i realized that if anything, i should be flattered that these people, who have no effect on my life whatsoever, have found my life so significant to them that they could take the time out of their lifes, and social functions to analyze and judge me. and i am.. honestly am.. truely flattered.
and then after talking to nathan the next day for quite a while.. i realized that it doesnt matter what people say about you.. b/c that can never change what is true.. and what is true.. is the only thing that ever really matters. Thereforee the only thing that really matters is that, despite any fights we may have had over this past summer and will have in the future, i love my sister more than anything.. and when i have no one in this world, she will be the one that is always gaurenteed to be there.. and that my sister loves me.. and that neither one of us would ever do anything to intentionally hurt eachother. and no matter what anyone THINKS they know.. that's true, and always has been. And what really matters is that i love nathan, more than anyone could ever imagine.. and that for some reason, he loves me.. and nothing anyone says, or THINKS they know, is going to change that.
-neway.. so i spent most of the night talking to steve on the phone and then eventually went to sleep
friday-
-no school!! :-)
-nathan was nice and let me sleep in a littttlle bit, before he called me and made me get out of bed :-P
-woke up, took a shower etc.. and started walking towards mayfair
-met up w/ nathan, was introduced the famous new ipod.. about 3468985365 times (jus a littttle obbsessed lol) :-P no, but i did get to hear a really good band from austrailia that i've never heard of before
-talked about maaaad shizzle, that i was having trouble deciding if i should even mention.. but i did.. and i ended up feeling a lot better :-)
-nathan found a used CD from that band.. and got it for only 5$
-i dragged him into claires for a few min to look at necklaces
-started to walk home.. and he tricked me by leading me to his house :-P
-went to nathan's for only like a half an hour.. hung out downstairs and watched fuse.. my mom picked me up
-katrina's sweet 16.. she looked beautiful.. really nice place.. unforchantally i was not in the best of moods b/c i started WWIII between my parents b4 i left :-/ ...then ..ya know how theres always that one person who reallyreally enjoys.. finding that 1 thing ur self concious about, zeroing in on it, constantlly bringing it up, telling other people, and shoving it in your face.. jus cuz it gives them some kind of satisfaction w/ themselves? haha yeah.. well that person found me.. so i was a feeling a lil uncomfortable thoughout the entire party.. and then people showed up that that made me feel even more uncomfortable.. noooo idea why.. i reallyreally have to work on this whole not-caring-what-others-think thing.. so ne way by the end of the night i found myself in that STUPID BUBBLE thing that i usually get at YG.. so that sucked cuz i wasnt able to have as much fun as i would have liked to.. but it was a reallyreally nice party
saturday-
-jen's b-day shindig!!!<333
-nathan picked me up and we met up w/ jen, katrina, ursula, kyle, and elise at the diner
-kyle grossed every1 out w/ his crazy african-way of eating waffles :-P (strawberry ice-cream, mapple syrup, and sugar) msfggkhxjdytukz.. freaaaaak haha<3
-we all rocked out to our ipods :-)
-every1 left for the movies.. me, nate, and kyle waiting for my mom to pick us up w/ lauren
-lauren offered all of us some of her maaad weird salt bagel w/ cream-cheese and baccon
-met everyone + bryan at the movies to see "in good company"
-i thought this was suppose to be a comedy... how come people jus keep getting fired!?! loll... yeah so it was a lil depressing at points, but it was still a pretty good movie
-the best part was DEF when he pushed over the lamp hahaha
-everyone left me in the bathroom stall when the fire alarm went off! "OMG MICHELLE THERES A FIRE" 3 secs later "....GUUYYSSS??" ::no one answers:: lolll
-so after we were evacuated from the building (exciting day, huh?) we headed over to wendys, which was the original plan ne ways
-got food, took emo pictures, played w/ the kids toys (those ladders were MAD kool), talked about arthur haha<3 and sang happy b-day reallyreally loud RIGHT b4 we left so that we could escape the weird stares loll<333
-veryvery nice day.. hope jen had fun.. cuz i looooooveeeee herrr<33 and i miss her.. a lott<3 :-(
sunday-
-sea cadets? i think
-it must have been.. cuz somehow i ended up being assigned to color gaurd.. not jus learning it.. i actually have to do the flag thing at some ceremony next week... o god.. this will be fun.. ughhh rdshgntiuaytlhrneurs
hookai well i need to go finish hw and shizzle if i wanna go to YG sooooooooo..
later losers :-P