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felt kinda sad for the past couple of days actually...dont know why...ok i guess partly i do. i have felt really crappy about the way i look i feel i guess really fat for one...and im trying to eat less and exercise more and its not making me feel any better... i feel like its getting worse rather than better god..i have always been worried about the way that i look..but lately it has been so much worse... i look at myself and in comparison to everyone else i feel like im out of place and dont fit....i used to be much heavier than i am..but now it just feels like it did before....i feel...i dont know....not good enough is the only way i can think of to put it.....
today didtn help any of this much either....
ok...so ms hansen gave me that solo last week i was all happy and excited i practiced it so much..and i had it nailed...it sounded good to me..i told me mom she was happy i told tad i think he was happy..abnd my mom told my aunt who was really excited for me as well....but ms hansen told me that she wasnt gonna let me sing it at the concert cuz i havent had time to practice with the choir...so instead she gave it to someone else....she told me she was just going to not have the song...but no she gave it to SOMEONE ELSE god..that really hurt my feelings a lot.... im still pretty upset about that....
so and then after both of those things i have school....my CE presentations are next week...im nervous about washington state.....and im dealing with the choir thing....
OH and did i mention i work too? yeah..
im not necessarily sad...just feeling overwhelmed and helpless to make it go away.....the i am trying to do it alone..that is realyl hard.....
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today didtn help any of this much either....
ok...so ms hansen gave me that solo last week i was all happy and excited i practiced it so much..and i had it nailed...it sounded good to me..i told me mom she was happy i told tad i think he was happy..abnd my mom told my aunt who was really excited for me as well....but ms hansen told me that she wasnt gonna let me sing it at the concert cuz i havent had time to practice with the choir...so instead she gave it to someone else....she told me she was just going to not have the song...but no she gave it to SOMEONE ELSE god..that really hurt my feelings a lot.... im still pretty upset about that....
so and then after both of those things i have school....my CE presentations are next week...im nervous about washington state.....and im dealing with the choir thing....
OH and did i mention i work too? yeah..
im not necessarily sad...just feeling overwhelmed and helpless to make it go away.....the i am trying to do it alone..that is realyl hard.....
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