Oh my..............
I have not touched this thing for a couple years for an update. I always check up on who else writes in them about their so called "happy lifes", so I guess Here I go blabbing..
I had a job, happy life, no bills. good relationship with James,money to go out and do things,friends..........So now im jobless,bill galore!, no james and no money ,flat broke! and no friends
I wish i could run back 2 years and re-do a few things..... i think you make the biggest mistakes in yuor life at this stage in the game....If i would have focused on school and not fucked around, i would be pretty be damn need becoming a nurse! and say in Jan. i would be making 30 dollars an hour, then find a place and then worry about sharing my life with someone else. I always wanted to rush rush rush, finish school and play 30 year old Mom, i guess since i never really had much to look forward to, i would just think abuot how cool it would be to have a cool job, and be stable with bills and everything else..
and be independent.
and as you know i failed. things didnt work out like that, who knows when i will finish school and be debt free
and be out living on my own.. it sucks.
every day is a new day but everyday i hate life more and more... im so caught up in the heat of everything I feel weak,hopeless,worthless and a failure... i dont want to be apart of anyday or anything.. i barely get by.. the days just drag on through and i pray for the time when im so tired i fall asleep to leave my head to rest
i hate it.. i hate sitting in my room for 10 hours of the day crying looking at the walls thinking WHY!
I had a job, happy life, no bills. good relationship with James,money to go out and do things,friends..........So now im jobless,bill galore!, no james and no money ,flat broke! and no friends
I wish i could run back 2 years and re-do a few things..... i think you make the biggest mistakes in yuor life at this stage in the game....If i would have focused on school and not fucked around, i would be pretty be damn need becoming a nurse! and say in Jan. i would be making 30 dollars an hour, then find a place and then worry about sharing my life with someone else. I always wanted to rush rush rush, finish school and play 30 year old Mom, i guess since i never really had much to look forward to, i would just think abuot how cool it would be to have a cool job, and be stable with bills and everything else..
and be independent.
and as you know i failed. things didnt work out like that, who knows when i will finish school and be debt free
and be out living on my own.. it sucks.
every day is a new day but everyday i hate life more and more... im so caught up in the heat of everything I feel weak,hopeless,worthless and a failure... i dont want to be apart of anyday or anything.. i barely get by.. the days just drag on through and i pray for the time when im so tired i fall asleep to leave my head to rest
i hate it.. i hate sitting in my room for 10 hours of the day crying looking at the walls thinking WHY!