Every word you say I think I should write down
I feel that lately nothing I do creatively is good enough anymore. Maybe this is because I would love to have a job where I am involved with some sort of creative process, but have not enough creative talent to get there. I do not feel as though I am down on myself. I feel I am being realistic. I do not know what I want to do with my life.
I chose to get married. (Definitely on the plus side.) My husband is amazing to put up with my moods and my medication side effects. His heart is in my right place. Incidentally, if you are planning on taking any depression or mood stabilizing medications be aware of the side effects and take a few days off of work. I recently tried two new medications and ended up shaky and tired at my best friend's wedding and then slept for 12 hours that night and the next night.
I digress. (I stole that phrase. I plagiarize now too.) I think that I may want to teach, to write, to photograph, to learn to design, etc... but I know I am just good enough to get by with what I need these capabilities to do.
I am capable. However, capability does not mean lifelong love of job.